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2009-03-17T20:47:00.002+08:00

di malam sepi ini, teringat kisah cintaku
bilaku keseorangan wajahmu menjelma,
sewaktu bersamaku, kao tk menghargaiku
ingin kao ku tinggalkan
setelah ku dipermainkan

*
tapi malangnya nasib diriku
ku tk mampu untuk melupakan mu
ingin ku sendiri menagisi, kemergianmu, kekasih hati
ku sering terbayang,kenangan kita bersama
engkau berjanji setia
akhirnya ku yang terluka
setahun da berlalu
ku tk dpt melupakan mu
tapi tiada ku sangka, kini kao sudah berpunya
repeat*
tapi ku masih sayang tahap dirimu seorang
dan aku akan merapimu
hanya engkau yang ku sayang

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ini adalah suatu lagu yang aku ingin nyayi kepada sesiapa yang hati terluka

credits to 'nadya-dikenali di youtube'

sungguh bermakn dan sesuai dengan lyric ini

kalau aku dapat sesiapa yang ingat menjadi guitarist

senang sikit dan ini lakukan untuk suka suka untuk melepaskan kerinduan

seseorang insan kepada kekasih yang lama pergi untuk insan lain

hmmmm ?

namun laguku kepada baby yang tercinta

tetap 'Luahan Hati' kerana lyricnya sesuai dengan macam mana kami ditemui

sayanng, hurry home baby.

2008-11-18T13:00:00.002+08:00

ok ppl.. i am ok now.. infact i am ok like a long time ago.. so yarhs.. me and baby settle everything already.. cos only we know each other hearts and we did not mean anything horrible..
so yarhs.. at the same time.. i am checking out people too.. fallen into my traps huh .. alot somemore.. gosh you peeps really laa.. herks ! thanks wani and has .. also my wonderest brother, hamizan and kakak *adqk86* for giving me the words that i am looking for.. some of the peeps in msn mcm hancur sak.. mcm maner dieorg want to survive eh.. heheee.. stright forward .. yarhs.. cos i loveeee giving people some traps so that i neo who they real are and i will avoid making mistakes again..

to baby .. seriously.. i love you too much.. i neo your heart that you don mean it and also you are testing me. for every test you give me.. i will respond the same way.. but now i neo what is your intension, i neo you will always be with me always and i always be with you.. thanks to you i also neo what i am doing nowadays.. give time to complete my level then i will be with you plenty of time.. feel like being with you reminds me the times where i had never ending enjoyous times with my own group.. Fiza, Hasanah, Aishah .. times that i with them ..

my heart changed towards people .. yes .. totally.. cos meaning of people's heart is different... i can't forget but i can lose it.. how ? i neo how .. when ? soon.. yes.. sooon.. so, guddie guddie guddie.. bye bye bye sayangies.. herks ! i neo what i said to baby , and i neo you will understand why too i have to do this.. im sorry.. i have to leave everything behind cos i neo what best for me. all i want is you to be beside me helping me if i did the right thing.. be with me baby and help me get through this.. dun let me lose them.. but i will .. one day.. help me.. between devil and angel.. i need you to be the head of it.

be there for me cos i need you.

ps : stop doing all these shit-ness please, cos it is just nothing but craps..

i loving school nowades and loving my life and relationship.. i dun want anything to happen to these thingssss.. dun block me from doing this.. cos i want these things to be mind.. i have to lose something i will to get it .. im sorry ...

This would be my last post.. and i am going to leave now.. so toddles and gud bye everyone..
maybe will be deleting this blog at the end of this year.. maybe new account is created and limited people will access.. wait for me to contact you..

Thanks !

2008-11-17T15:55:00.002+08:00

saturday reflection event was a blast.. a full 2-3 week of suffering DONE !!!!! WOW !! The audience loved our performance. MCG roockss to the maxicooooooo !! the crowd even clapped hands and cheered for us even before our show started. the whole MCG was a real proud.. and and and aaittee.. there were muhd Shabir( Vansentamm winner person) and hyrul anwar too performing with us.
btw.. during lunch time.. hyrul anwar SAT beside me.. !! Zura and I were having lunch together and gosh .. he sat beside me.. Zura and I was shaking.. isnt it Zura ?? okok.. even he is not my idol but think of it.. when is the next time where you can sit beside a celebrity right ?? this a one and a life time man !!!!!!!!! too bad i din took his photos.. but dun mind.. i got my own idol.. BABY . heheeee.

i want white rose but got a yellow one.. but its nice though.. went home and put it with water and it blooms so beautifully .. still displying at my house...
Next day .. sick. seriously sick seyy.. wake up like 11 am still sleepy.. i need to go training somre and THANKS GUDNESS .. cancel.. sleep all the way.. niwae told kakfie that i cannot make it ..
bla bla bla ..

today still not feeling well and i din go school.. there goes down my GPA . alamak .. need to study harder ..
yes ..
go annisa.. u can make it..
woohoooooo~!

toodles..
pics upload soon ..

2008-11-14T17:10:00.000+08:00

i need you terribly ... can i ?

2008-11-14T13:13:00.001+08:00

Metaphor of the day :

SOULS DIE WHEN LIES STRIKE

2008-11-14T08:54:00.002+08:00

okea.. this is the sechduale yesterday rehearsals. I am very busy. i was not allowed to bring valuables so i left it in my beg. So dam tired siaaa !!!! i hate it...

i neo you are worrying about me, i neo you are calling me. i neo u message me and i neo kak ayu will call me. i can feel it that is why i immediately call you right after my rehearsals. Do you think i like being stuck in school without contacting you ??? i tried calling you. i missed you the whole entire day cos i am unable to talk to you cos you are busy with your school talk at ITE semei.
I did email you my sechduale after that i told you that i will be having breifing after the rehearsals. Kalao there is a big event jangan nk harap alek lambat. you neo i have performance this saturday. What more proof you want? i NEVER lied to you. i NEVER mit another guy okea. my own sis tells you before that i am very truthful. Why arn't you beliving me? i called you, you din picked up. i message u din reply. i called your house, engage. Sammy tried to call you to no avail. What are you making me now? i gonna through enough stress and you just make the weight more heavier. How do you think i feel. I am so innocent and at the end of the day i get nothing but trustless. i dun neo if you are sleeping, infact i dun believe you slept that night cos you message me and i replied. you making me feel awful enough. i will find you even to call your house and dun surprise that i will be appearing infront of your house if i have to. if cos i will apologise to your parents for an unexpected guest arrival.

pleasa , i need your trust. i have to post this cos to let you know how much you meant to me. i scared of losing you. i did not even think of anyone else. My heart is only for you and no one else. Why seyy .. u making me cry to sleep. yes.. i lurvb you.. i always will.. i ALWAYS will !!!!!!!!!!!!!
u want me to swear ?? i am brave to do that cos GOD neos how deep my love is for you .. What more you want.. ??

I JUST NEED YOU ...

2008-11-13T11:17:00.002+08:00

i think i start to talk about a story... so this is how it goes... Have you ever wonder, if you had done a big mistakes and regrets of doing it and hopes that time would move back to that time.
yarhs ,, i had that kind of feeling. i once betrayed a friend. i destroyed someone relationship BGR- gonna-be. so yarhs, with that, i lose a very tremendous friend which i treat her as my own sister. I think about myself too much that i did not think what would happen to me in the future.

what we do is that i have a heart-to-heart talk and tears everything all out. in the end, because of one stupid mistake, she did not trust me anymore and therefore i and my friend are not together close as before.

When there is something that bothering you, please step front and tell. Let everything out. I will always be there for you and be there with you. I'll stand on your feet i will. Help to tell, i will.
Dun be like me where i will be losing my bestfriends. i dun want you to have the same experience as mine. i want you to be happy with friends around you. Be with me to talk to and i try to help you as much as possible. i can give u advice but no point if you din try. Its for your own good. alot regret not listening to me. but i know what you will be doing would be best for us both. i hope the best for you.

Today i will be going through a performance. Tickets all out and only 5 per person so i give all to my wonderful people plus my bf. i really want him to come. Seriously. i want him to come. I'll go into tears if he din come. i did yesterday after DK cos he said that and now i a, relief that he said he came on Saturday. Wait for me please.

quotes will be sent to you everyday .. insyallah .

After saturday i can concentrate on my tarian now. wee ~!

2008-11-12T15:27:00.004+08:00

This is him before ...

This is him after ....

But this method is shown wayyy before la

he can *sucks* fire

cool kan !!

Baby send me his pictures.. seriously, i followed him to the barber shop to cut his hair. I asked the person to cut slope, short layered, spike keep tail. yarhs .. he is super different and i likeeeeee.. sooo yarhs.. this is the pictures.. he demand to upload it here.

The last pic i dun kinda of like la.. mcm mat rep.. but then nevermind.. he looked cool

mat or minah rep so what ??

hati ingat/niat baik seyy.. jgn nk fikir ukan ukan yee.. org tk suka..

dun look on hair or clothings.. look at HATI.

so baby cyg.. i grant ur wish tao..

love you baby ..

so today was not that my day la..

actually..

got to go for DK after school to try our clothings.

then ahead home.

2008-11-12T08:49:00.004+08:00

Reflection is coming this Saturday 8pm..

i order ard 13 - 15 tickets then reduces to 5 per person.. alarmak..

Saper je yang order byk2 ni semua. sad my parents cannot came.

My friends da confirm so lucky sui sui 5 person.

i am very tired with the rehearsals EVERYDAY from 5pm - latest 10pm.

lamarks... kesian for those who stayed at pasir ris where they reached home almost MIDnight and somemore some did not complete their RJs.

Even my tarian trainings did not do such things, i mean even the day of performance is near,

time balik BALIK ! kalao kene drag makesure jgn deli deli deali..

okokea.. why i complaint was because, they took dam long to rehearse. Nasib kasi muka, as i want to do my best in performing.

Da 1 week i did not meet my baby .. dearly missed him alot..

Semalam da kena bising kit in message..

wah! i am so sorry baby . i neo u are worried about me, i am sorry that i did not specify the timing all that, its just that i am toooo busy with trainings. Understand baby, i got performance on saturday and i want to be the best for u to see my perform for the first time syg.

Gonna mit u this Saturday eh baby, be with me syg.. Gonna hug u real tight despite my sweat from the day perform.

I WANT THE TICKETS !!!! like NOWWWWWW. .. .. please..

Baby .. I love you always .. Trust me as U trust My heart

2008-11-10T14:21:00.004+08:00

i want him only

if can

i want him only in my life

if can

i want me only in his life

if can

i want him everywhere i went

if can

i want him to live with me

if can

i want only me that he can think of

if can

i want only me to make him the happiest of his life

if can

i want only me to be with him every single second

if can

i want only me to be his one and only gal family

if can

i want only me to stay be his sides

if can

i want only him to make me happy

if can

i want only him to be with me every single seconds

if can

i want him to attend to my needs

if can

i want him to sleeps with me

if can

i want only me to attend his needs

if can

i want him to always hug me

but then, i can't always be with him

i know i can't

but i wished ..

that i can

2008-11-06T16:08:00.001+08:00

i missed you baby ..

i need you terribly ..

can you be there always for me ..

i neo you can't

cos we have our way of life ..

how i wish this busy life were to end ..

so that i can be by your side

forever i can ..

2008-11-06T09:43:00.002+08:00

baby, you have to understand other people, they need a certain advice which may not include what you need to know further. Da tao perangai orang mcm maner then talk nicely to them. Do not like bawa diri sendiri. I neo u are angry but do understand, kemarahan you effect others kerana niat dieorg lain. Dieorang sakit kan hati you, but do you neo what u did to them hurts them more then u think ? so yarhs, there are more, i need the talk between us again. please. i had something to tell you that there are always something that avoid me to tell you. so yarhs.

i had a terrible day for the past days and i need you. But you are yet to know what i had been through, mane you pergi selama ni ? i tk nk luah pat sini cos the matter is between you and me and i seriously that talk. i mean seriously SERIOUS talking with you kae baby.

hmm, skipped school yesterday to mit baby. the night before was not my day and i need to talk to him but seems that he did not want to her it or like pujuk me to let it out. so decide to tell him the next day but failed. Again.

mit baby yesterday at 9am, as expected waited again and again till reached at 930am. Then played lappy for awhile logoff 30mins later, finally, FINALLY gotten my blue degreed lens. yeepeee ~!
ohya ! baby gotten me a stitch bouncing pineapple thingee and it is soooo cute and charming, thanks baby ! love it.
( heart still not heal)
then have a short chat about his friends, soo yarhs, told already above.
After having our breakfast at long john, booked pit ! yeepeeeee ~!
got it la.
then siap siap g ikot malik g delivery with his lorry, like, wow la.. malik was very indeed FUNNY mcm giler babi. Never i meet people that makes all sorts of jokes and funny clown.

Last delivery at Tangling Mall, then picked up the rest of the geng. 2 couples. then mit the kak sedara couple oso. then pick up malik's gal so total of five couples total of 10 people. woow ~
FINALLY COUPLE NIGHT !!!!!!!
sweet tapi tak dapat ambek gambar la.
we do lau pa sat to have dinner till 10pm++ . i cant go home with them cos way past my cerfew. Niwea i promise baby to be home at 10 pm++ and be a good daughter to mummy for him.
I am still a student so, treat me as a student where i have SCHOOL the next day kae. So went home with sammy and the gal, farah. Farah stayed next to my block oni say so it is like easier excess for us.

Da sampai uma ader police sakk byk lak tu.
Murderer case seyy. bulu naik sak biler nk mandi. There are stray dogs behind my house and selama ini aku tinggal pat situ tk pernah dgr anjing melolong sak ! sak .. mengigil seyy aku !!!!!
i dun think its the water cos i baath hot water that night.
mangkuk, da tuka baju terus tido sak. but nvr failed to say goodnight to baby.

Today, UT . shit-ness, i cannot do the UT.
Better next time...

note to baby : i need you sooo badly sayang.. i really dooooooooo !!!!!!

2008-11-04T14:14:00.002+08:00

well, if anybody reads my PM , as you can see i am very lonely. soo yarhs here it goes then :

Reflections ( event that I had to perform in ) burned my exciting moments for 2-3 whole weeks after school. 1st week was rehearsing the 1st and 2nd scene which is the intoduction of silat, pentas karyawan and Dikir barat and the sajak thingee, this week was the first week that we had to learn and memorise the dance steps of Dikir puteri for the Dikir barat to perform and yarhs, no one tells me about changes of the clothes so i get hot and stuffy that very day after training. +++++++++++ plus plus plus

whole 3-4 hours of dancing really burn me off and i was very tired but indeed happy to spend with the MCGs. Yelaa dgn dieorang aku rasa diri aku tenang gitu with something that i really adore since childhood, DIKIR BARAT.

During the training, no one contacted me, was hoping a message or something.

then, i was busy soo i was not mind about it that much.

yarhs, i was sooo lonely.

no calls

no message

no nothing else that i can realise my stress

no one to convey to.

then i felt myself fcuk up.

i felt angry at myself , really.

Gosh~! i am not a guddy guddy one

i think.

gosh i felt like crying right now.

usual calls and message of reminder but non

yarhs, i understand .

totally understand.

even if i kept myself quiet

telling others i understand

telling others we're different

yes

that is what i want, different from others

but how does a heart felt?

how does one heart that belongs to me feels?

hatred?

pain?

suffered?

tears?

stress?

betrayed?

jealous?

wait, are these feelings?

to people about me? - NO

to people like me? - YES

soooooo anybody wanna accompany me after my school hours? after my tiring, suffering day at school to make myself relax ? ANYONE !!!

Just not there ....

2008-11-03T10:55:00.003+08:00

baby bought us couple watch ! woohoooo~! maybe gonna buy ring next year. insyallah ..

yesterday go for tarian and kak fie tk fair !!!

step kuda la seyy.. tk fair tk fair tk fair !! nk step kuda la seyy

humph ! nvm.. i had fun but had to be home asap at 6pm..
then otw home mit mummy and get my exlink top and go buy meggi and BLOND hair.
believe me dun eva buy the dye and dye yourself cos sometimes i wund turn out the color u want.

haiyooo !

i look like one typical minah but i am NOT a minah !!!!!! pleasee..

well, btw, today is the first day of school after a week holiday. nothing to do except coming to school for DK .

met baby of the day cos he is not himself the day before. i just want to be with him when he is not himself.. i love him too much and dun want him to worry anything else.

that day mit sam and his gal gal. heheheeee !

nothing much to blog now. so i just end here..

SOUL GARDEN heeereeeeee i come !!

2008-10-21T14:53:00.002+08:00

Saturday was kak wani’s engagement and I totally forgot about it until late night. Duh.. I was like super sick. Pagi pagi buta da muntah followed by headache and all the way kena tahan pain at home with mum kept on rubbing my head and tommy while baby at rewang. Well, atleast he is busy so that I can have a good rest. Imagine I am having a high fever. Whole body shivered and I really restless. Told Yong Jian he cannot come my house cos I was very sick indeed. Bla bla.. nothing special about Saturday other then tahan pain.
Sunday,
- Almost well but still fever
- Cousin come
- ENDANG come – took photos, eat bee hoon, wow a lot seyy, 15 peeps plus on the way somore but I did not follow, I am so like rugiiiiii ! nvm.. always next year.
- Cousin come – favourite cousins came la seyy.. weehoooooo ~!
- Sleep – relief laa, can sleep with all the headache still hunting me..

Then there have this day, I went out with baby. Met him at Yishun as usual and irritates comes. Almost tears. Haiyoo.. I want to maki you also I cannot and dun want to. I want to shut at you also cannot. I have this mixed feeling that really really aargggsh !! yarhs. In short, im angry at you.
I reached there at around 930pm after sending the bursary form. He picked up the phone 5 minutes later stating that he will be coming down but I end up waiting for an hour !! ( Sorry I posted this out sayang).
He came down and I forget all about giving him a big hug cos I was angry but still give him a hug after he pleaded it. “ahahaks!” Then SAM came, alamak he urhs. if only he came abit earlier I would not like worried so much and tahan my tears.
Then, we went to urhs.. Bugis ! weheee, we my usual self, slackness of baby and uniform ITE of Sammy, we went there go arcade and I really had fun playing, I dun mind missing out any of other games as long I can get hold of that blocks thingy that goes up and up and up and faster and faster.. okea, I dun neo how to explain but baby and sam neos what I am referring to. So ya, I target that first that I think twice of playing other games. Like I can win a PSP, PS3, HP wateva other electronics staff for 2 token( if I got it la) . But pitty baby, he come out with the money. Gosh~! I cannot be to enthusiasm next time. Hehee, cos I can spend more than 50 bucks for just that machine but baby warn me already not to feel any guilty of spending his money.
Baby, thanks so much that you had treat me real well sayang, but I do not want any much more then only yourself, benda ni semua sekali sekala aje leh kea syg, I do not want nanti satu hari I expect more than expected. So yarhs. Not only that reasons, there are other better things to spend on kea syg.
Gosh ~! I had fun.
Then went to buy lor mee that baby was craving for. It was nice though. My gals neos me well, if I can eat I eat if not delicious I would not touch it again. Hehe. So, those peeps wants to neo how a food taste, DO NOT ask me. cos I will only say,” NICE, SEDAP” that is all. (: heheee,
So we are off our way home but buying prata sausage first. Hee sedap, I know what favour to buy as RP sold the same thing. Hehe only without Jambo.
They go back yishun to take my staff at baby’s home soooo, I found photo album of me inside. I guess the whole house knows about me then. So embarrassing la.. hee. Not prepared. But nvm, as long I keep them happy (:
So
Shhh
Shhh
Shhh
Shhh
Then home with taxi cos I was afraid to go home late night when I am at yishun after 10 pm. Yarhs, that day I was afraid. Do not know why.

Baby, I love you too much to say it with money $$$, cos money$$ did not tell how happy I am with you. I AM ALWAYS HAPPY IN ANY CONDITION AS LONG AS I AM WITH YOU. I am always love you and always happy with or without you cos you are there in my heart and I am extreme happy with you even without you, I have always ways to make myself with you every seconds. Yes, thanks so much.
( I did not check on any grammers so mind me if there is errors. )

2008-10-17T15:09:00.003+08:00

CONGRATS TO BRYANT !!!

MR SCHOOL OF INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY 2008

The WHOLE class supports you laa siol ! haha..

do your best okea, with with heart not more then that.

W45D

2008-10-14T12:29:00.002+08:00

yesterday mittin baby after school stright so decided and told to do RJ at civic macdonals. He came with hasyim and aim. The two jokers that lighten baby's life almost everyday.

you better treasure them kea. They are nice.

Baby had alot of fun and laughter at the mac due to what hasyim did about pulling the table. ahhaa ! i dun neo how to type about that period of time. They had a good laugh ! Hasyim confirm paisey kan.

After 730 we went to window shopping in CWP searching for couple's ring. Since it is one year already so thinking of buying us rings. woohooo~! i want to go all the way to lot one to buy that targetted ring. MINE ALLLLLLLL MINE !!! Warkakakkakakakak.. okok lame !

so yarhs.. getting outselves rings.

no blogging that much la today. i got loads of writing to do now for the presentation so ya.

till then..

baby.. mumiie lurvbbbsss you sayang

yg.....

hehee (:

2008-10-13T14:37:00.005+08:00

well,, pictossssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.. there is alot more but i only insert some . well, finally outing with my sweetest,preetiest gals of mine. =)

i love you gals to core .. ! my heart really had fun that time..

thanks to JAYJ for the ride around and sending us home. dun neo what to replay you lehhs.

a warm THANKS for you !

today is the raya celebration at school and i wore a bright red baju kurong today ! woohoo~! fav clr laa.. got alot of shows but i decide to go until 130 then finish up my ppt.

chah : everything will go fine..

lina : decide faster !!!

okok..

mitting my baby later.. woohooooooooooooooooo~!

kissy kissy later later..

*muuarqkssssssssssssssssss!*

2008-10-10T15:46:00.003+08:00

times has passed so silent

soo quiet

soo no words

so noo questions and answers

where is the words

where is the argument

where is the laugher

where is the tears

where is the complaints

once i was there

now..?..

i am gone just a click

and now i am back

ready to make everything better again

but what do i see

i leave behind muds and darks and collapes building

if i was there, i can culculate, i can mend

but what i see..

sad to say

too late to say

im sorry

but i know everything is going to be better

yes

keep my mind positive

a challenge to overcome

if all these is not here

that is no use of having brains

if all this has not happen

you will never know what to do in the future.

2008-10-09T11:12:00.003+08:00

Since is did not read other people's blog that much, i rearly read it. Then when i past Zura's blog then decided to take a look at Endang's blog and i found this picture.. woohooooo~ sungguh terharuuu seyy, thanks so much ! it is already been a month and now then i realised it. paisey paisey.

Today's topic is so merepek but INTERESTING,

Yesterday meet baby, i was so glad to met him after the misunderstanding day the day before.

I dun not like to drag the argument cos i do not want to lost the one that i love the most sooo much. Thanks to his friends, that they want us to last long. They loved us to be together. Thanks ! His friends is so sweet too. ( but baby is sweeter hehe).

i misssssssssssssssssed baby

i rinduuuuuuuuuuuuu baby

i saaaaaaaaaaayaaang baby

baby usuk !

baby adored !

baby notty !

baby ho matter who u are ..

i love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu so much .. ! ..

muuuuuuuuuuarrqks !

wee~ i am getting all mushi mushi

can't help.

love him too mush already.

mitting him later , again !

wanna spend time with baby..

since no one ask me out yet then he wants meet me

sooooo yarhs !

presentation time now

2008-10-08T13:46:00.003+08:00

love does not count the looks

love does not count the clothes

love does not count words

love does not tell how you feel

love does not say anything about the other

it is so amazed to know what love can do to us

i felt it, till now

i just feel, i cant tell neither to let it out

nothing can help me release the love to someone that is meant for me

it is just so difficult to do it

i love this person toooo much to put it into words

maybe that is what call love

you just need to realise it

they too need to realise it

i dun neo what to say

i dun neo how to tell

i dun neo how to show

i really really really tremendously dun neo

how to do anything to say how much

simple words : I LOVE YOU

you made me gone through

high and low

from the top peeks of the mountain to the deep sea below

how i wish you feel what i am feeling right now.

i dun have anyone else in mind

i only have you in my heart

only you

really

no witnesses no proofs no records

you are there in my heart

you face is cleared in my heart

i depend on you most of the time

you help me alot when i am in trouble

no one does that except you

i dun neo how to repay you

simple words : Thanks !

all these simple words has meaning behind it

meaning that does not have anything to help it let it out

it stays between the lines of these simple words

Babystitch darling, I LOVE YOU !!

2008-10-08T09:03:00.003+08:00

okok. First i want to apologise. Gosh~! alot of grammer mistakes.

3rd October sentence correction : i treat semua tkde niat TK baik. I forgotten to add that on. aiyo.. i really need to read up b4 i post. Sorry !!!!

well,, mistakes are there to be corrected right. :)))

sorry saayangg,,

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semalam aku telah melakukan satu kesilapan,
nk buat mcm mana nasi sudah menjadi bubur. Selepas ini, aku hanya ber-tawalkal dengan aper yang akan berlalu nanti. Aku hanya mampu melalui cabaran saje dan tidak gune kalao dibanjiri dan di jadikan lautan yang luas di isi semula dengan binatang lautan yang hanya mengeruhkan keadaan. Aku tidak tahu bagaimana hendak diri ini luahkan kata-kata lagi untuk membukti segalanya. Hati ini tidak tenang dari petang semalam sehingga kini. Salah diriku tidak berfikir. Apa gunanya aku diberi otak kalao aper yang aku pelajari dari sekeliling tidak digunakan.

Diri ini dikenal pasti dengan mengikat tali perjanjian.
Tiada satu pun yang akan ku memutuskan kesemuanya.
Hanya hati yang akan merubahkan kesemuanya
Jika berlaku akan aku doakan yang terbaik.

harapkan perkara yang tidak baik akan berlaku

seindah bunga ros putih
seindah ku luahkan kasih
seindah hati di balut sayang
diri akan setia tidak terbayang
selalu di ingat tidak terlepas
hidup tidak tenteram tidak terkilas
pandangan tidak dapat dilupakan
jasa pada seseorang kepada diri tersayang
salah dan silap tidak terputus kata-kata
kerana mulut badan binasa
tidak akan putus
tidak akan pisah
janji pasti tidak diputuskan
sampai mati akan setia
percayalah saaayaangg

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Today baby start working, yeah ~!

Better kerje rajin rajin,,

nice to see you start working then SLEEEEEEeeeeppinggg..

snore snore all the way

baby jangan notty notty tao sayang

pok you are tao.

humph~!

then I has a full group today .. wee~!

today's topic, i cannot believe that there is in this country.

you need to be a millionaire just to buy a packet of sweets . pathetic right.

well their dun neo what is very weak.

nvm..

Starting the day with a worm smile today

again, im soorrryyyyyyyyyyyyyy !

2008-10-07T16:01:00.004+08:00

today is abit dull for me with the start of UT and i confirmed lose 4 marks but the rest i dunneo luh. i was thinking to start the day with a smile but i pity one of my classmates as she lost a friend. soon, with all the suspects and all the thoughts everything, the situation becomes a bit complicated.

gal , relax kea.. what goes around really comes around. i gone through alot in the past and if you listen what i said to u earlier, hopefully, nothing like this wouldnt bothered you again.

herm, syazana won this contest to watch rock and roll la movie, then just cos she is underage,

oooweeee.. too bad the tickets was given to other peeps. alamak u are! i really looking forward seyy.. dammit you. heerumph!

the presentation was nice, thanks la to the group effort. But i suspect the class would end abit late due to the long answers and questions. Now in the middle of the class presentation and i was dam bored already, not that bored but i got like already used to the topic which i applied to my daily life. at the same time i am listening though. Nice presentation done by the class.

i think i can predict what i will be doing after school. Maybe..

after class, RJ, evaluate, Quiz and maybe i will be going home stright to study for the next UT on Thursday.

actually looking forward for baby to say, "honey, want to met me?" but i think i would not be hearing it cos this time he is too busy with friends and cards so i was thinking that he wouldnt want to met me. Nvm, i dun mind. i am so alot missing him. I get to lonely when i was with his group of friends but all of them are supper fun luh.

every single day

without fail

forgotten you

does not exsist in my portable dictionary

every seconds i think about you

it hurts when you think otherwise about my thoughts

you are the strength

you are the hope

you give me someone to love

and to hold

now i need you arms

i need you to know

that i never had been this close.

nothing can change the thoughts i had

difficult for me to say

but seriously

my heart is full of our memories and pictures

of us and you and me

together to create a history.

basically, as you blog readers can see, i am toOoOo in love with this prince of mine. im fortune to have him though there is alot of jealousy and hatress. There is a formula to find the right one that fits nicely to form a puzzle. i and baby realise that we have our own methods to find each other. Till now, we are strong. Right baby?

Goah~! When will the class to end ? it is 4:25 and the last team present plus 6th P. Comfirm will take a long time to end. Yawning like uncountable times. I want my hand to type and type. Waiting to RJ even it is opened but no mood to do it yet.

I think i end it here. nothing to talk more about.

sooOoOoOoOOO

pss : baby, i apologise it i made you unhappy in this post and other post as well :) i love you alot ~~!!

2008-10-06T11:35:00.003+08:00

ok, people are complainning why i am so not in the mood these days.

i wrote down alot of what i was thinking in my diary but not going to say it here.. private la.

i dun wan make private blog cos afraid of other people figured out the blog password. so forget it.

hemm, today was great though i abit fras about baby not fetching mt home yesterday but..

baby, i enjoy the day together.. soOoooOOOooO much la seyy !

but dunt think otherwise tao. saayangg you..

i missed baby soo much la today, you better fetch me home after school tao ! you promise me.

i dun want words nimre.

after school got DK metting regarding upcoming performance and reflection. Dun neo whats that but will neo lateerrrr..

cannot wait for rayeee with frieeeends !

2nd OR 3 week

faster make decision everyone. i got alot of bookings lately.

chacha : fifi cannot make it 2week on sat. she is available on 2week in sun.

if u are unavailable on both weeks then its ok, kiter g sendiri sendiri.

Confirm asap by thurs or friday tao. thanks gal..

ok, while blogging, do my maths at the same time,

called baby,

bla3

tk jadi fetch me

Baby, tk payah fetch me anymore la

tk marah, if marah, i force you to fetch me already

cumer my heart has this rasa mcm pain

very pain la.

that feeling like slash gitu.

dun make time to turn around

i dunwan it even

maner mell ni ? ppt belum abis la !

wohooooo~!

nanti meeting ENDANG

weeheeeeeeeeeehooooo~!

see you galsssss lateerrrrrrr :)

btw, i want to thanks to fizaaa and precillia for being THERE for me

treasure you gals to core ! *kisses*

2008-10-03T14:25:00.003+08:00

i know it is Hari Raya where apologies are given and accepted.
gosh~! never been this mad in my entire life during the month of Syawal ( Hari raya )

I skipped school half way to book pit for the this coming December.
to people who do not know what's going on - im no mood to tell about it.

you made me wait like long minutes laa seyy
i went off earlier so that i can met up with you
i went as fast as i could so that i will not be late
there i sat there waiting and 4 MRTs passed
hello ! it does not take that long to come woodlands la
so dam frastrated and i called that best friends of yours
gosh~! he finally said about you.
you should tell me la rather then ur friend tell me
i want to hear it from your mouth
why can't i hear it from you in the first place??

then go town instead
baby bought me a handkerchief stitch
weee~! thanks !

i love you saaaayangg..

bla3..
i dunneo what to say since i am in no mood.

btw, i dun mean anything about the belanje thingy
just that i want to say to sam that all people are the same
i treat people semua tkde niat baik. you mademe farkked up.
im sorry

what made me even cannot tahan hari ni
if you think you are a good one then listen
i didnot try to snatch anything from you
but remember jangan sampai orang fikir yang you tkder rumah, tkder keluarga.. i da penah kene. kalao u think that no one said that, people have minds and they can think.
tk kesian your family??
you listen to me..??
i dun want you to say anything more .. please
i dun want to hear any of that repeatted words anymore
i will stop that sentence
don't say it if you did not mean it
making my heart aches only.
seriously, tk tipu.. if this continue i can get SICK.

i am sorry but this post is not that any positive creative thoughts.
i hoped you get what i mean, i am sorry to let you read this and also letting the public know about it. you want me to post it so i post it.

do you know why i am not ready to meet your parents?

2008-10-02T11:43:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT

HARI

RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

RAYE 1ST WEEK : FAMILY

RAYE 2ND : FRIENDS

RAYE 3RD : SAPE NK DTG DTG LAAAAAAA !!

SEMOGA KEMAAFAN ANNISA DI MAAFKAN

dan halalkan makan da minum annisa

semoga di hari yang mulia

kemaakan di terima walaupun tidak dikata di hadapan muka

2008-09-29T09:39:00.003+08:00

put that phone down again and left it offline is so not you and not my desiressss..

you neo i hate that and yet you still do it again. Seriously, you neo it. simplest ways to say that you did hate me. senang kate laa, u like to see me in pools of bloody tears isit? it is not funny tao. i said it means i MEAN it seyy. I was dread missing you like hell and you dare to make it worse. The next thing i knew u said sorry. i seriously do not want your sorry laa. That word does not cure my painful feeling that stored in my heart for long hours. Its bugging me and making me lose my self confidence in you. My heart beginning to feel the pain. All this while i have been hiding it from you. Now i will let out since it is 1year Gosh~! If you neo i felt that time, you wouldn't do that to me.
When i am angry at you, did i do anything to disappoint you ? If yes, specify. List everything that i made you angry. Say laa. EVERYTHING !!!!!!!!

okok

I bought this new hp .

i target navigater but i can't afford it. i think about ummi earning a low income.

come on la. understanding la sikit. Tak kan sampai sekarang you did not get what is my family situations is like. I seriously no mood to talk seyy. Agak2 la sikit tu . Ikut hati memang nk balik seyy, dun want to listen to you but i give face laa. i fikir you heart seyy. Kalao tk selesai mcm ni sampai biler pun tk game.

I return it back cos i dun want you family think otherwise. I neo you think of me but please, they are someone to you and they are FAMILY. no one can replace them. Please kae.

My main problem now is Financial. Mum happies me alot with gifts everything but i should be careful with what i ask for. I am not like other single child where most ask watever they wanted and misbehaving watever. I am the only one she depends on and no one else.

dont take this too hard.

without tears you neo my weakness

with tears you neo my strengths

Life is a challenge you have to face

even you have to fight with someone you love

you have to face the fact

cos they love you more

then anything else.

i love you for everything you have

i love what you did to me

i love for who you are

i do not know what to proof me sentence

you will neo how strong my love is

from you heart

the love i gave you is as strong as

the love you gave me

2008-09-26T10:47:00.004+08:00

Happy 1st year anniversary

bbedynnisaney

Today, 25th September 2008

The day that I have been waiting for...
I thought of wishing babyiee at 12 midnight but maybe that I am too exceited and too tired for the day of Iftar on Wednesday, I slept all the way till 'Sahur'. But in the middle of the night, sometime I will check my hp for any sweet expected messages from someone that brings light to my life.
Well, I was quite angry with babyiee for going out late at night and was home around 4 plus.
honey to boyfiee : Yes I am angry with you and upset about it.
My alarm woke me up for the morning breakfast and I called babyiee once i read his message that i received around 00:15. Gosh ~! He usually message me when he reached home but i did not received anything about it so i was alot dissapointed and worried.
He then message me and called we to wake up. Lucky that he called me again cos i went stright back to sleep when i last read his message about asking me to wake up. Heehe..
bla bla bla.. went back to sleep after sahur. Babyiee too have his nap after a looooong day he did not sleep.
honey to boyfiee : baby notieee !! take tidoo.. pok*pok* notiee.. !
Everything was planned, skipped school to meet baby at 9am at Yishun.
honey to babyiee : Good boy ! u did not make me wait for loong.. *kisses*
We had a short chat under his block saying that i look sweet wearing skirt.
honey to babyiee: Thanks ! but i am not comfortable enough cos it keeps on moving upwards.
Suddenly, tengah shiok berbual, baby's father too was under the void deck la seyy. Well, he saw us, what can we do? I pretend not to know anything and was afraid that the father would be angry or something. I just do not know why I am sooo afraid of baby's family. Afraid that they did not accept me.
honey to babyiee : i want you to be the best child. i do not want them to think that because of me, your attitudes dislikes them. i tired my best to changes you sometimes but i cannot force you cos this means i will be taking away somethings that you like which i do not want that to happen. I always felt afraid and worried if there is someting happened to you. I am not there to help anything at all and i cannot protect you in any ways. I prayed for your safety if i am not around cos I LOVE YOU.
I want you to spent times with ur families and let them know what you want in life so as they will understands your needs. i hoped you understand what i am trying to say.
He told me to wait as he went back home to pack his staff and proceed to our journey. He told me to sit somewhere else, maybe so that if his father were to approach me, I might not be too afraid of facing him in the first place. I think. But then i just sit where i am seated and read my book(it has been longed since i last read it). After he brought his tent down, he took me to a place for me to sit, again and wait for him while he went back home(i do not know what he do at home then). So continue reading my book. We sat there for few minutes while deciding what things to buy, mind us, we did not fast that day la. We will be together for the whole day so obviously there is no need to fast la yee.
Then i heard, ' mieow !'. There was a little kitten stuck in the longkang ! cute seyy the cat, black with white spots. wee ~! Gosh i ouh soooo loooved cats. Then baby opend the longkang grill and let the kitten out. but it so degil ( notty) ....
honey to baby : just like you ... heehee baby kan nottie... bllueek !
...... the cat do not want to leave the longkang(drain) so i tried to take out my this tali that hangs around your neck sometimes you hang it on to ur hp as well... okok.. i do not know what the thing calls.. i placed that near the kitten and it played it but still.. do wan to come out from the longkang. Baby closed the drain and said that just to forget about it. The cat doesnt want to go out. But it was so pitty laa. so baby opened the grill and let it be. so that the cat can leave the longkang as when it wants.
honey to baby : good boy !
So after buying tibits from NTUC off we went to catch the 169 to sembawang. haa.. one more thing, baby was like ooh soo famous all over SINGAPORE. Most the bus drivers knows him. heeehee, because of his attitudes going fishing. You should see, the bus driver even waits for him ~ maner nk dpt ??

err, i continue when i reached class tomorrow, now i want to sleep.. so good night !

honey to baby : good night baby , honey lurvbs you always sayang !! muuuuarqks ! No nottie nottie tao.. pok baby aru tao ... weehee ~!

26 September 2008
Ok, I am in class and today is maths module.
Continue from yesterday’s post..

SoooOoooOO…. We took two bus to sembawang park. I cannot get lose with sembawang park, I love beaches and sembawang is the closest beach I can get to. Heee. Yeah ~!
When we reached then, surprisingly there is a sign saying no camping. Wth ! why now no camping seyy. So I thought that maybe over night laa. We pitched tent anyway. So lay outs everything, and get into business. Thought of wanting to show baby my surprise but I think later.
*ehem*
*ehem*
*ehem*
*ehem*
For like 2 hours then this security come and say that no campings allowed if not fine $200 dollars
Seriously pathetic. So we had to stop everything and clean up laa. But then, baby layout this thing so that we can sit comfortably.
Honey to baby : it feels like I am at home. I like hanging out in the beach and lay my body like as if it is my bed. Hehe.. should do this more often. I really feel comfortable.
I brought along this VCD and watch kecoh kecoh raye. I think baby had a great time watching it as I can see him laughing.
More kisses and huggies for baby while watching.. yeepeeee ~!
After watching the video that is enough battery left to show him the surprise I made in the presentation slides.
Honey to baby : What do you feel when you read through the slides syg?
Baby give me kiss and really I can feel his love towards me.

Around 5 plus, we packed everything up and have a short chat on what we have been through this 1 yr relationship and I was very pleased that you really love me.
Honey to baby : I have no regrets to choose you to be mine.
I hoped in few months time, I know you real self and with that you know my true self too.
I want two things in our relationship, like I said in the slides, I want TRUST and I can assured you that my trust is always there for you to keep you confident but do not under estimate me. Next is that I do not want any SECRETS between us. I did not keep any from you all this while and hopes after this you would not keep anything from me.

Then while chatting we head our way to CWP. Baby wants to buy a gift for me. I cant wait at that time so I pretended that I am not anxious about it. (Heehee pecah rahsia laa. )

He bought me this stitch cup, actually he ask me to pick which one I wanted. So I think wisely. I got a bowl, a small cup and I think I is best if I have a glass then. Yeepeeee ~!
So I got it and I treasured it. All the three things I do not want to use cos I do not want to break it. Precious la..
My uncle once accidentally broke my present from kak fie so I do not want this to happen again but baby said to use it and then keep it and bring out when i want to use it again. Still.. ( I TAKOT LAA)

After such a long day, we proceed back to home sweetest home…

For one year, we get into this relationship without non of us sound to each other. It is as if we are chemistry relationship. For the first time, he sound me to be his girl and I feel that this is the real beginning in our life. I give him a tight hug that I wished it wouldn’t last forever.

Honey to baby : Even our big day is simple but it is tremendously sweet and treasonable.
Thanks saaaayang.. honey lurvbs you !!

2008-09-23T10:28:00.002+08:00

aku missed dia

aku rindu dia

aku suka dia

aku cinta dia

aku mahu dia

aku nk dia

aku sayang dia

wee ~!

seandainya bertahun sudah tiba

bertapa gembira tubuh ni bahagia

sayang .. sesungguh kamu merasai

bertapa dalamnya cintaku pada insan yang tercinta

okok.. aku berjiwang

yelaa. kalao da cinta

u neo how i feel

saaaayang bb

Thursday ni mitting you up yarhs..

weeepii ~!

cant wait

cant wait ~!!!!

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today cognitive super SUPER diff

been trying to find the suitable ppt to present

trying to figure out what to say

confirm cockup la

i think

that i learnt to edit pictures !

without the help internet

how inpressive the technology nowadeays

and you self does not know it all this while you usin it laa.

haha..

the presentation is almost done..

baby want mit me

but i promise mummy to reach home to eat

heee..

macam aku puasa

hee

pecah rahsia.

tmrw ader iftar

cant wait.

dress up as if tmrw HARI RAYA

heee..

yeah ~!

2008-09-22T11:46:00.001+08:00

i missed ENDANG.

i missed all the times i had with them.

I am unable to attend training due to the sickness i had now.

No one knew.

No one.

But thanks to peeps who kept me alive and knows what is going till now.

Hopes everything goes better.

If i am not experienced enough,

I know what is the ending end gonna happen.

Got alot of hearing aids for me..

but i will not dare to follow their advice..

i missed my sister.

i missed her very much

went through ups and downs together

but maybe a slight mistake i knew it is gonna happen

i knew it.

i missed my baby

i missed him very much

i dun want you to tell me that you promise

if u cannot go for it

u made me suffer

yes

u made me suffer

where are you when i need you the most

but though..

i still love you cos what we gonne through is LOVE

i missed my mum

i missed her very much

i went to school

she reached home

when i reached home

she goes to work.

almost every single day

when i want to spend times with her

they is always something i had to attend

gosh ~! i missed my mum

These peeps made me though day and night.

ups and downs

but when it is time to let go

i always have reasons why

a VALID GOOD TREMENDOUSLY REASONABLE REASONS why

i had to leave them

I just want peace.

if i knew..

i wouldn't steps to the area.

2008-09-18T15:09:00.004+08:00

Baby ask me to open the First wraper first...
Then this is the 2nd wrapper, i open b4 12am. i cannt open b4 12am.. MUST 12am then open

that is what he said laa so just follow..

Ask me to wish 1st then open it and i received this !! yeeah ~!
Baby buy this dress for me !! wee.. thanks ~! i love it !

Happy Birthday to me !

Happy Birthday to me !

Happy Birthday to meeee !

Happy Biiirthhhday tooooo miiiiiiiiiieee !!

yeah ~! legal 18 of age now yaa..

wee.. ~!

thanks to everyone who wished me birthday ..

even we did not met but i love all the wishes.

it mades me calm and always think that i'm being remembered..

woohooo ~!

I got prezziee from baby..

he bring me to geylang that day..

was bored and tired but i dun mind cos going out with baby..

yeah.. i m very happy..

he bought me dress.. how sweet laa.

ayim in the hospital.. so sad that i can't visit him

but baby going on my behalf..

send regards to him ..

Semoga cepat sembuh yeee..

W35D

You really make my day !!

you sung me songs and i was very touched and pleased..

you are all LOVED !!

Best Prezzie i get from the class and thanks !!

2008-09-12T10:26:00.003+08:00

All the way changi to FISH !!
Wee. honeyBABY
babySTITCH
Baby give me for advance BIRTHDAY

Hari ini, 11 hari bulan September 2008.
Sudah 4 hari aku sakit. Batuk sudah masuk 2 minggu tak henti-henti. Sudah kenapa dengan diri aku pun aku tidak tahu. Aku rindu ENDANG. Sudah 1 minggu aku tk hadir latihan. Entah ragam, lagu baru yang sudah dipelajari. Tekak aku semakin lama semakin sakit. Perit. Macam mana banyak minum pun tekak aku tak baik-baik. Macam mana nk nyanyi, nak pekik nanti?
Dalam 4 hari ini, aku tidak dapat puasa selama 2 hari. Dah kene hutang lebih. Terima Kasih kepada baby hari ini dia hantar aku pulang. Angkatkan beg sekolah aku. Kadang kala aku banyak menyusahkannya tapi dia tabah.
Hari ini, tak pasal aku sakit. Lagi ada orang irritates aku. Cakap bukan-bukan. Cakap tak jiwa. Punyalah sot kepala otak aku. Lagi tengah tahan batuk, baru masuk kelas lagi. Baru nk load problem statement, da baca, sikitnya 'SENANG'. Da tambah pening aku. Aku gadu kepada salah satu kawan aku. Dialah yang sudi dengar rayuan aku dan dia sorang tahu masalah aku lebih dari sesiapa pun walaupun aku baru kenal dia di RP. Terima kasih kerana dengar kata-kataku itu.
Seriously, kalao ader lagi meeting tu akan aku luahkan isi hatiku itu. Insyallah.

Sampai disini. Adalah gambar2 yang da lamakan aku ambil cuma tk upload.
Enjoy!

( sorry! oni peeps took malay language understand this la. - better, afraid that person didnot understand a word i said in english.)

Today.. still not feeling well. now its cough

cough*

cough*

sniff*

sniff*

i just cannot heng in much longer..

2008-09-09T13:04:00.002+08:00

ok today is the 9th day of the fasting month.

Gosh ~! i did not fast yesterday as i was sick and yarhs, stayed at home do nothing but medicine that brought me to sleep. And the best past i can eat wateva and wheneva i want !

Baby was sick also but wasn't had the greenlight to breakfast from mum. heeee..

The greatest thing of all is that baby, hasyim and aim ( two of his bestiees) came all the way from school to my house just to visit me ! awwee.. sweet ~!

i brings me back to the memories when i was sec one when ida, diyana. khairun and nazira and dunneo who else decided to visit me when im sick. hahaa !

thanks guys for coming all the way just to vist your friend's baby gal. herks ~!

But we did not breakfast at Gombak.. all of us went home individual after suffing the net in the mac.

ouh ~! and the friends had a real care about me though. both of them.. thanks !

Then the day before, 8th september,,

I, baby and hasyim went fishing all the way to Changi.

Still, supposed to have a fish but then.. non.. like walking all the way to the port that we wanted to and i had this haus feeling in me and i it is like 6 hours till i can drink ! Gosh..

baby talk to me like i did not listen or anything..get a good scolding from him.. heeeehee.

bla bla blaazz..

went back to the dun neo where and eat.. finally and guess what i cannot finish my food !

haaa.. it was an interesting day ~!

Ok, today's cognitive, The faci was like.. FUNNIEEE..

he makes the class lively today and yarhs.. he introduce his family members all that and thanks..

cough*

more cough*

hell, i need this thing to go far .. really..

maybe miting bb when he is fishing and it's a yeah ~! for me.

i dun mind missing out anyting else laa..

bb darling

Gosh my heart is fallin in love,

from deep down the ground to the sky above,

i am not lonely anymore,

cos of some1 gv me tt im graving for:)

Thanks alot to him,

i will not regret,

i will go deep in to find something that i have not found
From drops of tears till the wide smile,

From night to morning my love for you will ALWAYS shine!

you were there to light my day

you were there to guide me through

and when my days down and out,

i'll never stop thinking of you.

how can i forget all thatwhen you're the one who make me smile,

you'll always be a part of me,

and how greatful you are still mine.

for all the things i have done and sayfor all the hurt that i have caused you,

i hope you will forgive me baby

cause that wasnt what i meant to do.

i dun care what other thinks

i dun care what other say

they have no rights to do what they think is right for me

i love you for who you are

you are the one that i am looking for

their type and mine a totally different

and you are mine from ____ to internity..

i always love you bb.

2008-09-04T14:09:00.004+08:00

My aunty bought Durians and i spotted this heart shaped one ! begged my family not to eat that after i took the photo and i did.. after that gobbled it up :P

ouhk.. today was Science..

it was all smooth going though..

and i beginnig to like my faci.. the first he came to class, i thought he is kinda person who scold peeps like shit.. but it turn out.. - dun judge the prawns behind the mee goreng. hahaa.

he promised us chocolates after we managed to do this experiment thingy.

if not, we had to do this 200 long words reflection journal. oh gosh~! i am sure not to have that la.

herm.. hey roza, you dun have anything other to do huh..

you got like 2 projects to complete lehhs..

leceh leh..

mitting bb later..

maybe not buka but mitting ups..

then maybe eat snaks or something to break our fast.

hehee. cnt wait..

"I NAK !!"

ohoh..

to chacha, i totally forget the paint house thing.. sorry, i went out at ard 1 or 2 pm plus..

forget everything but buying lens..

heee..

sorry.

ouk, i surely can't wait..

forrr...

2008-09-03T12:26:00.004+08:00

MY BROTHER TILL THE END !
Brother and Sister
Happy True Family( 18 years of age )

my daughter,my brother,me and my daughter

hasanah,lina,nisa,fiza... jalan dah !
Maintain sister lurbs !

oukea.. today was the 1st day of Semester 2. After 3 long boring weeks of vacation finally went back to school.

well, seriously.. before school starts.. i am scared like hell !!!

thinking if anyone will accept me..

then i found out everything went smoothly.

thanks my new friends for enterprise !

thumb up !

pss : enterprise faci --> DELLA !!

her again siaa !

meeting baby later

break-fast at lestari

weeheee ~!

countdown to 1st anni ..

hehee..

yeah ~!

gonna buy trophy for him..

hopefull got enough money :)

pss : wanna talk to that girl laa..

seems so nice when looking at me

wanna make more friends !!!!

finally

a GOOD BYE !

2008-08-27T13:51:00.002+08:00

This is the song that i dedicated to my beloved bb..

for those who wants to know how we met.. this is the exact song on how we met..

Pertama kali ku mendengar suara mu
Sayunya hati ku merindui diri mu
Walaupun belum kita bersua muka
Namun aku tetap jatuh cinta.

Petama kali ku bertemu dgn mu
hatiku terpaut melihat senyuman mu.
Aku mengharap engkau menerimaku
Kerna aku bersedia menyintaimu

Akan ku renang lautan yang berapi
Membuktikan kehebatan cinta ini
Tetapi jikalau kao meninggalkan aku
Terhiris hati ini
Terguris jiwa ini
Menagis tk berlagu
Biarpun ombak yang berubah pantai,
Kasihku tkan hancur berderai
Biarpun hari berganti hari.
Dirimu tetapku nanti

Sayangku bimbangkan tanganku
Menuju mahligai bahgia
Kita bersama nikmati kisah cinta
Hidup bagaikan di syurga
Ooh, kasih

13.8.2008
Well, it’s a bored la. My hp a real toot laa. Here’s how the story goes. I skipped school on the last day of school because I scored in culture for daily grades already so to me it’s not like I mean .. no use coming.. hahaaa.. I might be wrong but ya, decide not come and hopefully I do not regret anything. But there is one thing that I regret so much, spending the last day with all my classmates. Yes, I missed them already, all the fun and laughter. Ups and downs, mini fight against each other and the next second knew they are bestfriends already. How I missed that moment where we had to struggle to complete a topic. Some leave class cos the group does not know how to do or just simply lazy to continue the day. Like peiling. Gosh she really daring to skip class almost everyday. And and how did she managed to score UT ! arhahahah.. I missed them.. sophia, kris the two twins attitude. They simply have the same thing in common. Love huggings and kissings. Hahaaa ! but I missed hugging them for the last time. How I can get it from them when the school reopens. Then the first hug I got from a Chinese guy.. its Songwei. Yes.. I want to hug him too.. hahaaa ! he really brighten the class with his fun jokes and laughter with Nigel, Rui Yang, Edwin. Then the malay boys with their guitars singing along during the science lesson. How funny when Khaliq sing the song. Hahaaaa ! he made this tune like sememek hahaa. From high to lows, our ups and downs, no wonder I am looking forward to school everyday and spending time with them is a preferred. But too bad as usual I cant spend time outing with them like I did with my girls. How pity. Gosh I gonna missed W45E .

So what I do on that day? Mit bb laa.. promised him to met. So in the morning I met him. I knew he would not be awake by then cos we supposed to met at 9am. So I took my own sweet time, kept on calling and just nice, when I reached yishun, he’s awake. Then wait for him under his block, met his friends there while he went back home. Bla blab la, three of us went to orchard to cineleisure to play pool. Haaa. Gone all the way there and I hate it but just tag along. Awhile oni bb and I have plans. Suddenly on the way to YCK, my bb msg his friend then then .. hell.. my phone went off suddenly and this time, it can’t even on ! I saw the process on how It suddenly switch on.. just like my previous phone. Gosh ~! LCD screen dead again. I dun dare to ask my mum money for my hp bis she had done enough for me. so I depend on my bb to quide me to repair my hp. How totally upset I was. Wasting a lot of money. I am so sad tremendously. Snif snif ** I returned the previous phone to atie. I cant borrow it cos her sis is using it. Now I had to hold back my rindu when I cant call my bb every night to give him a kiss before I went to bed. And good morning when I’m awake. Gosh I missed him too much every seconds passed. How my friends going to contact me ?? I’m totally afraid. Totally afraid..
Today, meting bb at 130pm . he should be there before I reach. To go repair my hp. And hope it will be better and is functioned before school reopens because the school will send us a message for us to go which class for next semester. Ouh my gosh ! I’m so scared.
Ouhk.. now its 12.42pm. im off to met bb now. Hopefully my hp is cured by sooner or later or TODAY !
Well.. gtg..
Gb
Today is 14.8.08
Well yesterday, thanks to Rizal I can cure my phone for only 40 backs. But how am I gonna get that money. Like my bank left 4 bucks oni. Alarmak. Had a good lecture with mum. She give me that money but will be abit longer period. Hais.. why am I had to trouble my mum ? I dun want work this holiday cos I neo I gonna be busy with other staff.
Rizal lend me his phone so hopefully it will be fine when I give it back to him. Gosh ~! How waste of money this month is.

Today is 18 August 2008,
I forgotten to write about what I did on Saturday, 16 August 2008. Well, the Puteri Satria is having National Day Show at Frontier Cc. I really had fun even I did not have enough training as I knew the steps already. Only a certain changes.
There were exciting show like the BELLY DANCER. Wowww ! there hot body really shoe off but HARAM for the Muslims to wear such clothes. Hot beautiful Bikini and this long beautiful skirt like pants. But there body really hot like #$@#%@$^# !!!!
I knew there is gonna be Dikir Barat ( BOYS ) performing. Thought I was Si Anak Seni. The usually groups that we performed with but this time is was KELANA PURBA la seyy ! wooow !! the kelantang really made me terasa. Cos they said something about blab la blab la PICTURE. Make sure u take it very CLEAR. And then don’t forget to put it at Friendster. I was like,, since I took video and pictures of them, I was like “terasa”. Hahaa !! Then the karut look at me and I was DAH AGAK, KENE KAN AKU LA TU. Hehee. I think laa.. cos when the juara singing, the karut look as if he was looking at me so think he was thinking of what to say for the Kelantan. Heeee.. warkakakaa.. nisa perasan but if u were there u would know what I mean.
They knew kak fiefie ( from wayan) .so a hi is normal for them.. heee..
Wash makeups. And proceed back home..
Al-kisah ….

2008-08-11T10:23:00.002+08:00

(Well, I am typing in the Microsoft words then just transfer it in blog.)
SoOoO, What I did on 9th August 10, 2008? Hahaaa ! yes.. of course it’s a National Day ! Happy 43years of age Singapore ! On Friday, leave half way to met baby, like my previous blog I said that I cannot concentrate at all. So I met baby. Yeah ~! Throat dam hurt sick till tomorrow but surprisingly when I went out, my throat soon got better. Haharks ! yeah ~! For me. Planned : go chacha bbq then go fireworks. Heard she stay decide to stay there. The rest said they do not want to go there, but that was a day before( or two ) so I do not know what is the real answer on that they itself. Then everyone decide not to go and just go for the fireworks. It was 3 or 4 plus seyy. no time . Mit fiza at Gombak at ard 4 plus then wait for lynn at Gombak. She brought her friends ( mat rep for me ) along. I and fiza was like.. (GOSH~!) But no choice, just go together . as long they do not disturb us I dun mind. They are human also what. But violent. To me. they can be quite nice also. Not all are bad. Org tk kacau, jgn kacau org sudah.
Hmmm.. wats more..
Ohya.. this was my first time watching the fireworks. Yes.. believe it or not. Its my first time. Cos the previous times,I didn’t have time to see or simply sometime I am too lazy and tired. Then I want to go cos fiza told me to so that can spent time with the others also I want met HASANAH !!! gosh I missed a lot . but hasanah come back from Malaysia so she missed the fireworks. Atleast I could see her. Give her a good big hug. Love you hasanah ! jie lurvb u a lot both negatively and positively ways… you got that attitude same as me. you me and fiza got the same attitude and now I know why I’m so comfortable most with you and lynn olso sometime. had our dinner at mac or supper ?? .. …talk with each other, we had along talk with each other. Thanks girls for sharing your thoughts. then we took some pics and then went home. Give a big hug to has again and she kissed me nearly kiss my lips .. hahaaa ! Then we go our separate ways. Talk talk craps with fiza. Share our thoughts again. Talk about our daily grades and going for CE talks during the holidays. Be glad to follow you gal. I also need that points. Atleast benefit for me if I’m followed. Reached home, call bb. Still at ‘damp’. This lake name at yishun. Can’t wait to tell him the story about what I gone through today ! Gosh love him to core ..
However distance we are from
One another, however life has changed us,
We are linked forever
You will always be a very special part of my life
…..
No one thinks or write songs about them
They are simply there- like you right arm
They are totally themselves- but somehow a part too, of your own life
They flounder in and out or your existence. They know too much about your past.
They have memories like elephants.
They know your weak spots. They are inclined to sigh and say, “ well – you would, wouldn’t you ?”
But when you are stuck at a bus station in the mountains, or on a country roas, when the river has changed course and is running thorugh the living room, when you have bumped the car rather badly, when you partner has just left you for good, when you’ve all gone down with the flu, when you have nasty and persistent pain…
SHE is simply there for me.
How I wished, I could turn time back and I want us like before. Yes. I want her. I want her to be the usual her. Somwone who treat me so nice. Someone to encourage me what I done wrong. Someone to share my thoughts. Someone to gossip. Someone to hang out and had fun. Someone that I can share my secret confidently. Someone who can teach me how to put in the sentence properly. Someone can spell it out for me. someone to share the games we had in psp. Someone that I can gossip with. Someone that can cheer me up with her jokes – sometime lame but funny. Someone that can accompany me. someone that I can relay on. Someone that talks a lot. Someone that like to mingle around with others. Someone who is quite open. Someone that can mixed with anyone. Someone that brings joy in my life. Someone that I called , “ FAMILY
IM SORRY …
Gb
....................
Then on Sunday, went out to east coast. Nanti cikya complaint lak naper kiter tk nk dtg. Mepek sak tu pompan. Setakt tk dtg bbq da mengamuk mcm dunia nak kiamat gitu. Arrgh.. hatesss her… but just go la.. bb went all the way trouble just to met me. with hasyim. Mit fow few minutes then I had to go off cos I my family wants to go home by then. After the east coast met my cousins.. cik liza, cik neeta all.. Erwin.. da besar seyy.. last time I saw she was just a little gerl.. all my fav causins were there and hell fun we had talking about Erwin likes this guy ( causin same age as her ) teringat masa aku pun dulu kene jugak.. she was dam quite all the way when they met each other..hahaa.. bdk bdk.. pics to be upload but not now.. im in skul and so pathertic only have 6 people.. soon 5 maybe.. walaoo then the experts is not in skul and had to suffer.. walaaoo..
But I think bb mitting me for lunch and fetch me after skul.. ( at last ) but happy laa. Got to met him. All my worried bingit all I let it to him.. thanks bb..

2008-08-08T09:48:00.002+08:00

yesterday i did not attend for practice..

really cannot tahan..

real pain really sick ..

Sorry kak fie..

today come for science and i already know i cannot tahan..

especially today science and culculations !

i cannot think ! uurghh !!

shouldnt have come to school today..

fiza asked me to drink alot of water..

ya.. supper hot (warm) water..

me ears are pain..

gosh hopefully im better by saturday..

out for fireworks ..

yeah ~!

really looking forward to watch with bb

but i neo this would not happen..

gosh.. really.. im in pain right now..

ok la..

no mood to type anymore..

gb.

2008-08-07T14:01:00.002+08:00

ouuh.. today was enterprise and i had loads of fun !

i mean, even there is only 10/22 students came.

faci brought us KFC since its the last week of school and the last module !!

wednesday is soOoOoooo no school laa..

then can hang out with friends ! wow ~! hopefully have enough money laa like i spend over budget this month..

well can ask mummy for money but not more than 10 dollars for makan with GFs.

during the lunch of KFC just now with all 10 of them..

we talked about the experienced we had during the first day of school..

wow i was really happening, i had a very good laugh what we tought about each other

and i already used to people saying ' kk, you look firece and i am scared of you siaa!'

hahaaa! that was not a shock.. i had this fierce face when i feeling myself and people thought that i'm the kinda-of-bully type... hahaaa !

well, joining back the dance for the national day.

kak fie needs me and since the steps had not change so i decided to just have fun then go home.

not feeling well today suddenly.

nvm..

i can hang in there.. go practice at 6pm and hopefully i can end it early..

i wanna sleep !!!!

i cannot sleep yesterday and dam sleepy and my class made me even more tired with the laughter..

hahaaaa !

thanks Song Wei for cheering me up today :)

ok gtg..

i have contribute for the ppt..

see ya and dun forget my barbeque pit !

2008-08-07T11:47:00.002+08:00

Barbeque pit around NOVEMBER or DECEMBER !

Cost : $5 per head

Location : to be confirm ( changi?east coase?Pasir Ris?)

Who : any one that I KNOW only - outsiders to be inform me and pay double

Expects : FOOD FOOD FOOD !!! other activities is self-organised :)

2 DAYS 1 NIGHT ( bring your own tents)

Purpose : get together with those that I had not long met.

Open to peeps from RP (my friends)

Yishun side

Primary School ( JTPS )

Jurong West Sec ( JWSS )

ENDANG

PUTERI SATRIA

TARIAN

hopefully is a success with help form each of you with 5 bucks ONLY

Anything lost, i will not be resposible do cooperate with one another :)

insyallah :)

2008-08-05T11:25:00.003+08:00

Bad mood :

kao jangan fikir yang bdk2 lain suka kat kao

malahan dieorang BENCI kao lebih dari kao fikir aku benci kau !

selama ini kao lepek dengan dieorang setakat dieorang takda siapa lagi nak lepak.

kalao kao fikir aku yang jahat sangat.

fikir urh.. kao yang suka BUANG kawan

kao suka putus kawan

kao takda kawan da bagus aku bawa kao kenal ngan group aku

lagi kao nak burukkan nama aku

tu pasal aku MALAS nak layang kao sampai sekarang

fikir laa.

buat jokes nak kene kan orang agak - agak

dieorang pun ader bual pasal kao laaa !!!

(Actually this happens along time, suddenly i had this feeling again)

lovely mood :

i love my bb very much

evryday i never fails to send him lovely messages

every morning i never fails to msg him a 'good morning bb! muuarqks !'

at night never fails to say 'good nite sayang,honey loves u always ! muuarqks'

we chat on phones everyday without fails

how i missed him very much

he is the only one i had in mind

he is the only one who keep me going

he is the only one that gives me hope

he is the one for me and only me as his wife in 10 years time

i missed him too much that i cried everyday wondering if i done a good job.

gosh.. no one can tell how much i lurve you bb

but till now i am afraid.

afraid of the future

afraid if we're not meant to be together

kite merancang, tuhan menentukan.

like i said, we will work together so that god will approve us both.

insyallah

2008-08-04T15:31:00.002+08:00

well.. got alot to talk about and pics to upload but

MALAS !

wait long long laa.. too tires niwaes ryte now.

yesterday ader ni festival about donation at ard bugis area..

the DK perform there with the rest of the MCG

heee.. then eat at banquet at Raffles hosp there.

then rush back home and get dressed for dinner at admiralty

celebrate the national day thingy..

fun siaa..

heheee.

combined school of JC primary and secondary

heeee..

im soo really tires ryte now.

come home at 12 sleep at 1230 wake at 730.. purposely..

then now is maths !

gosh cant think..

okok

gtg

ohya.. bb send me school today

thanks bb.

despite you jammed my ipod

and i went alot of trouble of fixing it with itunes

and finally on of my friends fixed it within seconds.

and shouted in class.

but worth it

atleast you would get lectures form me..

or or or...

heheee

bluekkk !

maybe if bb free..

he fetch me today..

dun expect too much

thanks bb

gtg

(pics upload soon)

2008-08-01T12:59:00.003+08:00

toda toda toda !!

dadadeeedooooo

love my bb YES i DOOOOOO !

hahhaaa.. in great mood right now.

gonna buy new phone.

not so good one

second hand

hopefully oukea la.

bb ask me to buy line

butt...

dun neo laa.

missed my bb so much

gonna mit him today to buy hp and lenss..

yeah ~ !

more hugs recieve !

gosh i love huggies not only from him but also my girls !

hehee..

ouhya..

barbeque organised but still in the mood of preparations

everything went well then will be inform all of you soon !

gtg

science really like maths today

%E^$%^%$&#%#

chaio !:)

annisa

2008-07-30T16:01:00.003+08:00

ok.. today was the second time i had FUN during congitive !

the first fun was we did a video but ok la..

but this ???

wow !!

i sing in front of the whole class !!

the title : MY LOVE

by westlife and planned to post in you tube..

hahaa ! fun siaa..

even our ppt messed up but the singing part went well..

i think..

i had fun.. !

fun

fun !!!!!

thanks daphne for doing the ppt slides, you did alot more..

and thanks the rest for cooperating with one another to do a success presentation

wait for tommorow !

another video by W45E !

ok la overall ! :)

2008-07-29T10:35:00.002+08:00

ok i am sure going to post this down.

on friday..

(forget what i do)

sooo forget it..

saturday.. mit baby thinking wanting to go kampung melayu but tk jadi

nvm..

on friday.. bb went fishing and come home early morning i think

and i knew that he would be tired by the time we met.

guess what.. we spend time together till 730pm.

he went homw, charge phone, watch tv for awhile..

and what i do.. sit under block waiting for him ..

lucky my ipod with me..

i dun notice how long it has been

till i called him at 9pm

din pick up

till 930pm

called his god sis..

kak ayu said, if still din pick up then go home

i was like.. waaaat ?!

how can bb forget me that i am still waiting?

i almost cried but tahan as ther are alot of poeple..

keep saying to myself maybe he is to tired cos of yesterday

finally decided to go home

cried

was funny though.

cant sleep..

wating foe his calls..

wake up at 230am

call him again..

then FINALLY,,

he called me at ard 530am..

he explain..

kept apologising

excepted

....

met him on sunday..

exchange my ipod with psp..

kept apologising..

blablablabla

...

din come in for skul on monday

im sick..

till now still sick

tmrw UT

dam it

how to study ?

im sick !!!!!!!

till then..

2008-07-25T15:47:00.003+08:00

Annisa editted.. 18 yrs to make it look cute with EFFECTS !

ok..

im FFffreeeeeeeeee !!

sooOoooO fREEEeeeee !

can spend time with mummy

spend time with baby

spend time with school

yeah ~!

1 mth plus to go and i will be freeeeee....

even im free now laa..

today took photos with the class..

but havent download..

gonna met my baby today

and tmorow till late night

want to jalan2..

today science

gosh.

screwed up la seyy

alamak !

work harder nisa !

miting bb in few hrs time ..

2008-07-24T11:05:00.007+08:00

This is NIZAM

wants to find a companiant

thin

'top'

smart

trusted

can understand him

etc

i neo what kind of gal he wants

oni non of my friends is his type

so those who wants to neo him

get beck to me

need ur photos

and if selected

i get back to you gals

thanks !

btw.. he is nice to be with but abit shy :)

yesterday, met bb with Nizam ( so called twin).

let sucy met them too and kenalan with nizam..

ok la..

everything goes well..

too me not that boring but sucy, ehhee.. tk biasa kot..

but hopefull everything went well right sucy ?

sorry if anything done is not up to your expectations.

jgn hilang kawan.. jgn senyap tao..

kawan je.. ukan nye matair kan..

his kind and be sure to mentain the friendship btwn both of you yarhs..

ok.. llast week din mit bb cos busy with school and ps.

so make it up this week.

yeah ~!

three days stright miting him.

family

school

friends
piriority..

other non related will based on book early of last min decision but better be good and brings

benefits to me.

herks !

still, i will change my "princip"

and and

bb got this watch

i just still dun get it why people likes to buy expensive things that can bought cheaper?

maybe one day they will realise that money is not just to attracct people .

he bought it like ard more than $3oo bucks !

hais.. cant do anything la.

for me.. i dun mind any watch that is suitable for me as long i can tell time.

today. i want to spend time with bb alone..

but i predict i cant la.

nvm.

always next time.

surely there will be his friends to hang out with.

i dun mind at all

like. they were loads of fun to be with !
hope to catch nizam again but not today !

oh ya..

finally, all this while i like want to tell but i cannot cos regret

but finally yarhs.. green light to say it

so.. i won't be there kea

not attending anything but will be there at the day itself !

i want to spend more time with family and bf more.

the rest, i will catch up when i really have nothing on.

if you were me, you would understand why

so dun hate me foe behaving this way kae ppl

today, enterprise ut

sucks !

i can't culculate at all la.

dam .

lose 11 marks.

gonna lose face when i fail maths

my strong subject !!!!

sorry bb

i dun neo that u plan surprise for me

but since everything i decide not to

u have to cancel it

hehee

think bright side

can spend time with u kan kan kan ??

i still own u 2 more sago

ehhee

glad u din remember till now

waiting for you to read this hehee.

tgk ingat tk.

herks!

met bb

hugs

kisses

more hugs

more kisses

wee ~!

gosh.. open..

nvm..

as if ur not !

bb more kissey and huggy forrrr meeeeeeEEE !!

oh ya..

mi bdea coming

18 sept

no outing please

i mean just hang out at my home enough

if mum and uncle allowed

if want than i can call ALLLLL my friends for those wants to celebrate with me then celebrate along.

**annisa**

2008-07-21T10:40:00.003+08:00

the Bulan Bahasa show was great..

although i admit alot of mistakes but then everyone act as a professional..

cover upp each other..

thanks !

there are alot of pics to download and upload..

but i will post it soon and also in friendster..

heheeee !!

i had fun make up and thanks to chacha for 'making' me up.. hehe

only eye shadow je..

heheee..

nice nice laa.

thanks !

then after the show.. met hasanah !

nice pierce.. my mum even touched it.. heheee..

well, atleast she knows that not all my friends are the decent type..

i can be quite vigorous.. hehee.. chey..

then...

my favourite brother on earth !!

Hamizan was there !!

heheeee.. thanks bro !

long time did not see and i saw you laa !!

i felt like hugging you but mummy was there..

hope to spent time with you kae..

and the rest also..

bring along a gal - if u have..

couple night for us insyallah..

;)

after the show when i reached home.. took some photos and edit them.

hope you like it :)

2008-07-18T16:49:00.003+08:00

SUCY, ME AND ZURA :)

ZURA AND ME :)

ZURA, SUCY AND ME ! :)these are the pics that i took before DK comp..

hehee..

my pics of my three new friends that we are close with :)

plus wani and esha but they didn't attend the comp

i mean participate.

the times wherby ENDANG did alot of hard work

missed those days thoughs.

OK.. well .. dates cancel three times..

dun wan to talk about it laaa.
today,

have a sleep over at kak fie's house and gat prepare for tommorow's performance..

yeah~!

then i had to go buy lens.. yerp yerp !!

2 days stright i did not wear lens laa.. expired and i need to change..

2008-07-17T11:50:00.003+08:00

updating today.. in the middle of enterprise..

hais.. missed all my friends and my new ones from chat..

(bb allowed me)

everything goes out of hand nowadays.. i dun neo why laa..

i hate siaa..

i can feel people are talking about me behind my backs..

like.. have we talked about it over and just move on ?

well people like this thinks they are a big shot with nothing to compared that they are even worse la..

was fucked up with that someone..

promised hell la you !

next time dun say when you dun mean it

and dun say when ur not confirm..

so shut up la..

u made my heart sink ..

hurts like it has beed stabbed with blades..

really laa..

much patience with you lately but i still give in..

you din even give a chance to explain my part..

as i dun UNDERSTAND it -> according to u

watever laa..

i hate using watever but then.. it is too much..

i dun bothered it that much as

I HAD OTHER BETTER THING TO DO.

then to think of someone that dun think of me once awhile..

i neo u think of me but then can u just once think that it is the only chance to set my eyes ??

u shud neo what i mean la k..

enuf..

UT sucks la.

VB sucks la.

deeper knowledge --> please.. gv time to absorb laa.

stu*** school..

YEAH ~ DK started and i want a short RUN laa.. hehe..

guess not all support it i think.. ehheeeeh..

-craving for sushi

-craving for that big table POOL

-craving for new wallet

-i want that watch laa..

-cravings of HUGS from bb...

2008-07-15T14:22:00.003+08:00

sushi !!!!!!
bb gv me 500 puzzles to put together and i done it in 2 days (if mom did ask me to follow her)

today.. 1st break, syazana craving for sushi and since i had nothing to do.. i then agreed to followed them. im in tight budget and my plan is to spend ard less then 2.50 buck but cos of sushi i spent ard 10 bucks.. hell..

i really need money seyy. mummy !! i want my 100s laaa !! hehee mum the best...

and somemore i am the only child.. still my allowance is less then 300 bucks per mth and from there independent myself.

i had fun with sofia and syazana talking about bells made of SHIT laa.. EeEeeeeiI

okok think im blank .. nothing to say ..

soOOoO..

Today pRACtice at CCK kak fiefie house..

at 8pm and leave there at 930pm urhs..

next day school seyy..

toddals. . !

Pssss... sushi pic uploaded..

2008-07-14T16:44:00.001+08:00

i did not concentrate 6p ( 6th presentation by faci)..
i was browsing ENDANG's blog and woohooo !! i found something caught my voice !
mak esah ! sokong kao urh.. tk penah aku nampak ni joke la.. haha !!
sooo i dun mind i post it here kea gal ?
______________________________________________________________________
Pada suatu hari yang tak berapa nak indah, Mak Esah menyuruh anaknya Ali ke kedai.
Mak Esah : Ali, ngko tolong belikan mak tepung naik sendiri kat kedai depan nu.
Setelah hampir sepuluh minit menunggu anaknya di dapur, Mak Esah menjengok ke ruang tamu.
Mak Esah : Laa….. dah lama ke engko balik? Manenye tepung yang mak mintak ngko beli.
Ali : Dah lama saya balik, mak je yang tak perasaan. Tepung tu ada kat tangga nu…… pandai-pandai la tepung tu naik sendiri.
Mak Esah : ?! Nape la bengap sangat anak aku ni ?!

*************************

SAPE HEBAT??
Mona : Bapa aku hebat wo.. Dia polisman. Semua orang takut woo kat dia.
Ali : Eleh,bapa aku lagi terer daa.. segala arahan orang ikut,kalau dia suruh orang tunduk,
mesti orang tunduknye..
Mona : Wow! Bapa kau keja apa ali? ganas tuu
Ali : Tukang gunting rambut je,kwang2.. >

KELAS B.I
Ayah : Apasal B.I kamu nie asyik dapat kosong jer....! Apasal hah?
Anak : Eh, ayah! Tu bukan kosong. Tadi cikgu adik dah kasi bintang banyak kat bebudak lain.
Ada dapat 5 bintang la, 4 bintang la. Bila turn adik jer,bintang dah habis. Sebab tu cikgu
bagi kat adik bulan.

*******************

Teka-teki:Hitam dan berpeluh..HA. . Ape2??
Jawapan :Semut hitam tengah berjogging..huhuhu

Teka-teki :Ape benda bila masuk segitiga bila kuar bergulung-gulung
Jawapan :Seluar dalam ler..haha

Teka-teki :Antara kapal terbang dengan kuih lepat liat, mana satuyang paling tinggi?Jawapan :Kuih lepat liat la...sebab kapal terbang sampai langit je, tp kuihlepat sampai lelangit.

Teka-teki : Byk2 kotak, kotak ape yg x leh angkat?
Jawapan :Kotak penaltilah.. ... wawawa!

Teka-teki :Kenapa Penggali Kubur Gali Kubur Tak Pakai Selipar ???Teka..teka.. kalo terer!Jawapan :Selipar maner boley buat gali tanah,gune cangkol lar....huehue. .hue!!

Teka-teki :3 kepala, 6 mata, 8 kaki. Apakah bendanya tu?
Jawapan :Koboi naik kuda bawak sekor ayam.

Teka-teki :Masa dia hidup kite menyanyi, masa dia mati kite tepuk tangan pulak...
Jawapan :Lilin masa sambut 'EPI BESDAY'

Teka-teki :Scorpion kaler apa?
Jawapan :Kala jengking lah..senang pun takleh nak jawab!

Teka-teki :Dlm bnyk2 kera, kera ape yg pandai menaip???
Jawapan :Kerani

Teka-teki :Ada sorang imam, tengah semahyang pastu ada sekor anjing lalu kat depan dia. Pastu dia jilat kaki dia, BATAL TAK AIR SEMAYANG IMAM TU???
Jawapan :Mana batal sebab anjing tu jilat kaki dia sendiri!

Teka-teki :4 org awek cun berpayung dgn satu payung tp nape tak basah langsung??Jawapan :Sebab tak hujan...aduhai! Dahlah malaslah nak tanya lagi...soalanbebudak pun takleh nak jawab!! Hampeh.

**************************

Jenny ingin putuskan hubungan dengan boyfriend omputihnya melalui surat. Suratnya berbunyi begini:-

Hi,My motive write dis letter to giv know u something. I want to CUT CONNECTION us. I saw u PLAY WOOD THREE in front my eyes. So, I break connection to PULL MY BODY from dis luv. I hav think about dis very COOK-COOK. I know I CLAP 1 HAND only. I don trust u again! U are really CROCDILE LAND! I don want u to PLAY-PLAY with my heart. I hav been crying until no more eye water. I don want BANANA TO FRUIT 2 TIMES. SAFE WALK!

The true,Jenny

Terjemahan ayat Huruf Besar:

CUT CONNECTION - PUTUS HUBUNGAN
PLAY WOOD THREE - MAIN KAYU TIGA
PULL MY BODY - TARIK DIRI
COOK-COOK - MASAK-MASAK
CLAP 1 HAND - TEPUK SEBELAH TANGAN
CROCDILE LAND - BUAYA DARAT
BANANA TO FRUIT 2 TIMES - PISANG MASAK 2 KALI
SAFE WALK - SELAMAT JALAN
PLAY-PLAY- MAIN-MAIN

2008-07-14T13:26:00.003+08:00

today is maths.. and ouh man..

i like forgetting what ive learnt for the pass few days la..

then, was bored

so i go to Endangs' blog sooOo..

i found these pic form AIN !

woohoo... lawah siooll..

to bad no vedio or something about we perform on that day la..

VB totally sucks la..

2008-07-11T16:20:00.002+08:00

hehee.. today i am veru happy !

bb transfer his photos to me and i was like ...

.. YEAH ~ !

then i post his pic in blog and friendster..

thanks bb.. lurvb you lots..

u still remember our memories ..

how sweet of you sayang..

i felt so much in love from him

he cares for me so much

i received stitch puzzle from him and it like was so easy to put it together la.

i mean.. hehe.. there is trick behind it

i finished like 1/2 of it already

tot of miting bb today since mum is going for dinner today

but then.. both of us are accupied..

i got rehearsals to attend and bb had his lisences to take

all the best bb.. ~ !

today in class

haha !!

the whole class was like doing their own work

too busy concentrating their own business..

but not that busy when someone opens the classroom's door

got this unknown girl came into our class

with his face like nothing happen

no reaction of coming into the wrong class

hahha

then syamil out of no where said,

"who are you?!"

the girl

" ouh ! sorry wrong class !"

running out in complete embrassement and laughings

the rest of the class burst into laughter

wow !

kinda of .. hahahhaaa !!!

haahah

ok la.. gtg and get ready for the rehearsals now..

till then

**bbedynnisaney**

2008-07-09T12:18:00.002+08:00

this is the worse day ever.. today's topic is cognitive which i hate the module dam alot la.. maybe the fact when i did maybe quite well but then still got Cs and Bs. but then today's topic, well. it is based on my experience urhs.. its about, something about other people's personality we followed.. so.. i was in the middle of concentrating and this irritating dam FIRE DRILL went off. JUST a drill la. lol.

And what we do??

this is the first fire drill whereby we had to pack up our belonging and keep our laptop and bring every belonging with us. LIKE WHAT THE HELL ! never in my primary, secondary learnt that laa.

nonses.

well, this caught my tiring day and then i immediately update here..

haha

what we do?

pack our staffs

go down the staircase - no lift of course

go all the way to soccer field at sport complex

stay there..

no announcement no nothing

saw most are going back to where we come from

go where??

class !!

waste my more than 30 mins of my time..

and no way i spent more then the usual time !

i want go home the time it says i should go home ..

haha !

i want mit bb later..

yeah ~ !

love you bb !

done.. going break now..

1 hr later..

im back and blog still not save so i think im continuing.

so now proceeding doing my ppt then.

cant wait to mit bb la..

btw.. all ticket are sold but those wants to come and support..

my group still hold on to somemore tickets..

thanks !

2008-07-08T11:02:00.002+08:00

it has been longed since i have updated..

well, where should i start then, i get my blog done.. about few days ago but dun bothered to update. heeh.. then good news ! i found my memory card and adapter back ! yeah ~! all pics will be uploaded soon and i had great fun looking back at my photos ! wow !! all my memories are down back to lap.. :)

bb getting his lisence and heyy.. he soon be fatching me home from school with the bike that he always wanted - which he did not know that i like it too.. since dun neo when.. infect no of my friends know that i like these kind of bike. hahaa !

all the best bb !

well, almost done with Puteri's training and can't wait till the end of the performance..

thanks midah for join us again !! we really need you especially me though..

FASTING month around soon and HARI RAYA coming !! which is in around 3-4 mth.. haha !! lol lame

mit bb when ever i am free after school. I prefer going YISHUN after school than somewhere else as it is a few distance away only rather than going somewhere where i had to go through and 'fourth'. hahaa.. miting him us is so relaxing me and all my stress are gone sometimes. He is someone that i can talk with and someone that i had nothing to hide about.

love you bb ! muuarqks !

tot of miting bb today but then.. he has appointment with his mum. aweee so swiit larhs.. heehe

then ok la.. nvm.. i always have his psp to play the new games i downloaded.. hehee.. pool !!

love playing pool alot...

well, maybe updating another day as i had to present now..

2008-06-26T16:21:00.002+08:00

Well the DK performance was a tremendous fun.

despite i forgot to inform my friend that i perform so that there are more funds for us and the school. :)

hehee.. nvm.. i had fun today.. only i cant wait for the performance for yellow ribbon project.

i want seyy to participate.. too in love with DK already.

since young i want to be part of DK.

no one knows huh.. hehehe.. my secret finally formed out...

the cd is with me and i really do not have any time to take it from home

it is like, the event is so long la. i neo need to prepare but wait la

wat so important ??

still got other days..

you cant blame me

u din tell me in advance

i can atleast plan someting to get the cd near you la

too bad urhs..

sorry la seyy

when i mit you i gv back urhs.

like as if we won mit again

ok la.. i am not in bad mood

only that i am too tired.

i seldom mit any of my friends

so i tell you what i gone through each day here kae..

try to update everyday..

2008-06-25T17:16:00.003+08:00

Ouk.. forgot to say someting..

today is pink day.. all girls wore PINK..
serious i hate pink but we all look cute.. but i managed to take pic with syazana
both of as the same color... bright pink ..
haha !
not all the girls wear as they do not have any pink
heehee
ouk.. this afternoon.. stomach cramp like hell..
not take the habit of eating menses panadol
mum says better u feel it so that u neo how hurt when giving birth..
its painful than menses cramp.
ok .. thats all again..
not mitting bb today.. may nest week urhs..

2008-06-25T11:35:00.004+08:00

me and 'liyanak' cos she play the anak
sucy(awok.b),zura(meracas),me(awok.d),liyanak(anak),huda(gong)
us us us !
nga makan bfore proceeding to SINGLAP SOUTH CC (com)

well.. i am in the middle of doing my worksheet

i dun neo wat it is about

instead i do not know what to do

im lost la

knowledge and occupation ?

i mean,

dun neo la

wat to seyy..

topic seems easy but NOT.

nvm.. com on grp..

let's do the best we can

oh gosh.. feel like cabut la..

but bb dun let.. comfirm

today ader gamelan

malas la

i mean, i need to remember the notes

again

da cukup urh..

mantain one IG is better

but i gonna missed my tarian members

i try to attend kea

still contact with them though

insyallah i go today

if i din mit bb la

but i try to come kea

heerm.. i need the song

'why do i love you'

sofi.. i want it from your disk!

heeh.. i missed bb la

he wants to mit today but think not confirm la

alamak

i planned so nicely la bb

but i dun mind if you want to go fishing

just wish i was there with you la

heheee.. missed you so much bb

everyday , never missed to miss you

anywhere, in toilet, at night

anywhere anytime

i kept missing you too much

i dun neo why

it so strong

too strong bb

love you always

thusday - dk performance during lunch break

sunday - performance at toa pa yoh ( yellow ribbon project )

hehe.. gonna have fun always la seyy

i really love it

ENDANGdk yeah ~!

oh yarhs - i am gonna perform under PUTERI SATRIA on 19 JULY

ticket at $2 ONLY !

at FRONTIER COMMUNITY CENTER

near JURONG POINT

level 4

start at 8 pm i think.

at night

INTERESTED ?

tag me or come to me personally yarhs !

till then..

2008-06-24T20:53:00.002+08:00

ok.. wat i did today.. where to start..

about my annoying ex...

- well, baik buruk aku pun, da agak dier kol alek... ahahha !

- ignore his calls

-before that, he called me when i am with bb - loud speaker

-hang up with the help of bb call ( even he is beside me)

-competition on 22nd JUNE

-calon for best awok and kesenian.. (kn? kn ? kn ?) woohoo~!

-performance this THursday in school during luch hours

-those people i grp with so sorry i cant help u but i try to give as much as possible

-learn new ragams

-catch fast to perfect

-go home learn and memorise the lyrics ( two days oni )

- challenging sia.. gud gud.. i like..

-after DK sit at explanade ( in school in TRCC )

- do RJ bla bla bla

-then update blog

BABY

-missed him la seyy

-missed so much la seyy

I really can't wait to hug him tight and get a little spin. I love my Baby to the deepest core. He is my superhero, my greatest miracle. He has been creating a numerous of wonders for me and our relationship. He is my greatest essential now. And he'll always be.

baby, i love you so much even more then infinity

may we stay together despite our busyness

and trust i will give

i neo i may create sins but i neo you'll always forgive me

ur mine and always be

there is still time for more improvements

and you make it stronger ever time, hours,mins and secs

i can't sleep if u din call me at night to say good nite

and i can't continue my routine if i din hear you voice in the morning

you love is so great

bb.. your my FIRST LOVE and with that i will never ever forget what you did to me

i give you my oni thing that i will never will get it back

as i know you the one for me

even people says i am crasy of being to confident of it

but i neo i am right

cos no one appreciates me more then you

i love you to me deepest core

i love you more then litres of water folwing in the sea

i love you more then anyone else

i will treasure you even if we are not fated

but lets pray that we always be together

bb, i can't show how much i love you

the answer is in your heart

the answer in your heart will tell you how much i LOVE u truely

loves honey

KAK FIE

-dun be upset that ENDANG doesnt win

-mayb what you think about the winning is not fair

-i think takde rezeki kiter

-there always be next time

-do support us

-WAYAN is still the best

-you said what we gone through is what you girls gone through

-you expect us to win

-its ok, we try our best

-training tarian will resume soon ok?

-ticket lum jual ... (hehehe)

ok la... penat da malam..

aku nk balek..

tido..

lum belajar lagi tok besok UT culture

mangkok

takpe.. insyallah boleh !

2008-06-23T08:55:00.000+08:00

Well, this is the day (22nd June 22, 2008) where I had my FIRST DIKIR COMPETITION (Layar citra). Okea, this is what I went through the whole day.
Firstly, I woke up at ard 6.15 (btw, my bb said he will wake me up at 6.30 which I total forgotten.) but actually I had to leave at ard 6.45 if I want to reach TRCC(building in school – to those who do not know it) in time and lucky for me, it was raining and my uncle volunteered to send me to school by car.
Once reached, there are few friends, we get changes, make ups, run the whole ‘show’ and off we went to SINGLAP SOUTH COOMMUNITY CENTER, Bedok. I was so nervous especially behind the hall. Like WOW larhs. My first com ever. I mean that not that I have not been to any com but this is my first DIKIR com.
(In MALAY larhs)
Pat dalam bilik kiter duduk dalam kumpulan kiter and juga dengan naj berbual tentang aper yang kiter akan lalui dan mengakhiri dengan AL-FATIHA. Itu benar2 menenangkan fikir aku, thanks Naj. Tepat masa, kiter semua proceed ke belakang hall, berdebar hati TAK ada siapa yang tahu. Mengucap byk kali sak aku. But hey ~ do you know that we have fun and if anything happens, our effort is not to waste as KALAU KITER TAK MENANG DI MATA JUGES TAPI KITE MENANG DI MATA PENONTON, betul tk? Korang tahu berapa banyak respond kiter dapat dari penonton kan? So insyallah kiter dapat. Gals, seriously I am very proud of you on that day. Also thanks to those yang datang to support kiter. I really had fun ~ really enjoy and did not regret any of it. Thanks people.
Another part of the story, ader lah ni budak mcm **** . ehs knncb, kau fikir banyak besar kaper sak. Kao ex aku kan! Tak semestinya aku ckp boi dengan kao fikir kao laki aku la seyy. beh aper aku kene ckp kao pompan pe. Fikir urhs. aku tao matair aku lum NS like so wat seyy! kao da NS jangan nak bangga urhs. Guy aku lao tk nk masuk kerana ader sebab pasal nk jauhkan palajaran bukan mcm kao. Bukan aku nak cakap aper urhs tapi the way kao bual dengan aku mcm semua aku salah urhs. kutuk matair aku mcm2 fikir kao byk baek kaper. Timer sweet talk mother**** even your ex yang I kenal semua ckp gitu urhs. kao fikir dua kali urhs, time susah siapa kao carik – aku. Time kao nk mengaduh siapa kao kol – aku. Time kau nk nasihat siapa kao panggil- aku. Siak, fikir urh. Baru sekarang I tahu kao nya orang mmg tk guna. Tak menyesal lah kao tinggal aku dan aku tk terfikir nk kao balik. Sekarang ni aku lafaz aku nk putus talian persahabatan, jangan ingin kao nk carik kao lagi urhs!
Tulah aper yang terjadi pada aku seharian. Mcm bila aku dab is training, ader ajer benda yang tk bagus berlaku. But one thing is I really enjoy a lot la. Really ~
Sekian, terima kasih.

2008-06-20T11:30:00.002+08:00

ok.. i felt so tired sia lately. mcm da tak leh nafas seyy. terlalu penat.
everyday go skul even during the break come home so late as i had to attend somthing outside come home at ard 10 and wake up at 9pm during vacation and now 7am prepare to go skul then training, come home late.
oh man !
im soo gonna be free soon.. soon.. soon..
but it worth it as i neo the meaning for busyness and resposibilities.
tot of skip school for few days but i cant as i dun want to waste any of my 'holidays'

BB went to JB today.. gosh i am gonna to missed him and infect i missed him already seyy..
well i cant help but i really LOVE him lots.

today i was not feeling well but managed to survive for class and the topic is CHEMISTRY. gosh it was a relieve.
i think i am going home stright. i was so tired urhs and my throat hurts.
so sowie that i may not be able to attend today's training yarhs. im really sick.

im sick from 2 week ago and now i need a day rest to get my suara back.
:)
sorie for not attending today's practice

pss to WAYAN : all the best kea.. semoga bertemu di hari yang mulia.. cheyh !!

2008-06-17T11:16:00.002+08:00

i was angry with HAMIZAN siaa.. ( said your name )
truly you chat with me just now which i do not know if its a joke or not but it is so sensitive for me to accept urhs.
i am so busy now adays and i am really tires of everything even the slightest thing ever, i will get irritated and i hate it lots la. somemore you make it worse. i said already da lah cukup. KAO MANER TAO AKU PUNYA SUSAH LA !
i did not purpose to log off form my msn is only that my msn pat skula suka log off by itself. so aku tak sengaja so kao jangan nak fikir bukan2 ehks ..

sorrie urh aku luahkan dalam sini. i let it out so that anyone who read my blog will UNDERSTAND what i AM going through.

fuuuurk..

enough is enough urhs.. i get so patience and yet nothing goes into anyone's head.

2008-06-15T15:24:00.003+08:00

It has been already a week of vacation. Thought that I will spend the holiday tremendously relaxing but then as I suspected, I had to come back to school EVERYDAY for IG which is dikir barat and gamelan. Well, I do not mind going as there is full Malays and I do not mind at all. Infect I always look forward to the next training.
On 2nd June, Monday, it was ENDANG’s birthday. We celebrated at Sentosa. It has been so long since I have been there. Since it is an outing, so I decided to go then. Well, it is better for me to go so that I can know them better. We were supposed to meet at 12? 1? 2pm?? Ok, I do not know as one by one by two by three came to meet the rest of us and each of us brought along our pot luck and I brought bee hun goreng spice. I guess they like as I was all emptied. Thanks girls for finishing it up. Tak sia sia mak aku masak ye. J
Then my friend called me saying that the media is short of people. Then I and zurah decide to give a shot being the extras scene. People! Be sure to spot me in suria, ROTI KEJU tao ! it is the new show in suria soon which is I do not know when it will be publish. Hehee. Then when we come back to our ENDANG’s spot, well the game is over but atleast we have eaten the cake. It was nice for the girls that make the cakes and bought the cake. It was a reall taste expecially the cheese oreo cake.. wowow !!! it the other cake that Atie’s mum made, the icing was not bad. It tasted good. Og the third cake, well I taste some as it was the kedai cake and I used to eating the same cake over and over but I tasted good. Bla bla bla bla.. when the time comes all the girls went home. ( I do not want to say the full story of what is happening as if I do so, I guess the computer disk will not have enough space J )
The next day at 3rd June, back to the training. It was fun la. The girls should know the story what is happening on all our training huh as I will not publish it for various reasons and you know why right? If not you can come to me personally. For those not from ENDANG do ask me as you will NEVER know about it. Hehehe.. sOoOOoO sorry.
Then, startin 5th June I felt that I am so tired then before . after training I had the silat competition. Chey ! I am in silat competition la seyy but hahah no la . I am one of the helpers there as a time keeper. Time keeper played am quite an important role. I mean not only time keeper but the whole committee. My job is simple complicated at first but after awhile it was going smoothly. I had to time how long the match have to end, then break, then start the next round, flag to raise when break is over, then when someone injured for 8 – 10 sec, bla bla bla,. Basically, it WAS fun and I cannot wait for the next duty ya !
Psst! No to mention there is cute guys and pretty girls out there in the arena. Hehehe. Oh ya.. the match was between all polytechnics, millennia institute, ite ( do not which ite ) National University of Singapore and National Technological. I screwed up one of the match but soon I get hold of it. It was fun though being the time keeper sitting neat the gong.
Today is Sunday 8th and I was yet to rest but I forgot to take my umbrella with me home yesterday, so I decided to take it today after I give my neighbor a visit as the mother has passed away. Now she is 84 and wow ! so old. We have been neighbors for so long since I was a baby seyy. Note for my kak fie fie, sorry I did not come for training as I called you so many times as I want to clarify if the training is to go on at 1 pm. That I already get myself ready and if only you picked up my calls I would already come. I hope to make it up soon but I feel I slight relief as I know you understand my situation even I did not make it up the training asap unlike SOME PEOPLE. Ok I do not want to talk about such people in my records as I will not beautified here.
Ok, for all readers information. This is the end of one week life.
And I apologized as I did not update as I hope you people understand that I do not have internet connection at home. I am updating not cos I want to but just to let you people read it on what is going on all this while and please people do not expect me to update most of the times as I will not have the time to as I choose not to waste most of the time here kea. Hope you people understand.
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Abang mizan : I link you asap .
ENDANG : we will work together for the com !!! yeah ~ !

Today is 9th June 2008, well… thought of taking a rest as today takde DK but then I had to attend for tarian ( malay dance ). It was real fun la. Get to know new and exciting steps and I do hope I am able to show it kak fie to help out in the performance coming. Of course I will not recommend all of the steps. Only the steps that is simple for the dancers to dance. No much today urhs. Go have my dinner with friends and set ahead home and finally to have my rest.
Pss… baby I love you and will always will syg. Glad you understand me even I am busy J .
Its 12 June 2008, well school tarian is cancelled and how relief as I am really too tired of all the trainings with the DK lately. Really, I am deeply so tired sia. Everytime I come to DK I will short of breath. Even before I enter the room I already out of breath. Now adays I am so sick and I do not even bother to go to doc as it is not that serious. Every training I felt so relax. I mean I forget all what is bothering me. It impressed me much that there is no teacher teaching us. I mean all the instructors, the person in charge , everything is 100% students. See how these students eventually do a big project and serious they are and the rest of us that does not have any roles eventually followed what they ask for.
However, one thing that I do not understand is that, why they are late for every practice. To say that they are tired of their journey is longer to reach school, there are others who stayed as far as Pasir Ris could reach school on time earlier then others. That is what is really fed me up. Oh well, as long as at the end of the day everyone does not mind then I too will not mind. Might not know if one of days I will be late without reasons. Niwae forget about that.
DK com is coming and I cannot wait. Its on the 22nd June and insyallah ENDANG will do her best in the coming competition. No matter what even our instructors will be in the com, we still support each other. They win, ENDANG wins. ENDANG wins… errrr.. not their medals.. heheh.. no larhs.. nomatter who wins I am sure ENDANG will be as one together, right girls ?
Ok, I am not gonna talk about that only. Herrmm, school is going to be open soon and gosh I am gonna be extreme tired and weak sia and some more the UT is up soon which is maths. Hope I could do it. I want to atleast score straight ‘A’s. pitty my mum and uncle who have helped in my financial difficulties. The only thing that I can do now is to give good results. I know that certificates cannot bring to grave but this is what I can do first before I really can concentrate on what I am supposed to do.
While typing this, at the same I missed my Hubby so much. He is planning to do a bbq this Friday with his friends and he is short if something. Sorry BB I cannot helped you. I am in need myself too. Maybe next time we planned ourselves kae syg. Sometimes I think of negative thoughts about my relationship and told bb about it. Thanks bb for believing in me. I so not know why the others do not understand me but you, I am glad you are mine bb. Muaarks !
I missed my RP friends. All of them. My class mates. All of them. All the 23 students in my class. I missed them so much. Sorry I did not join you guys for the outing on Wednesday kea. I was busy with IG as I have upcoming competition and glad you understand it. Thanks to SOPHIA too. Gonna see you guys on MONDAY real soon huh and continue our craziness again right.. hehehe J don’t forget UT coming… J
I missed my girls. Fiza.. I know I always see you everyday so I don’t missed you that much.. hahaha.. no larhs.. I do missed you sometimes you know. We have been together since sec 1 and never been apart. You know me most the best. In fact you know everything about me then any others know. I missed hasanah. A girl who is always in high spirits and likes to mixed around the most. She is the one who is so daring that the others. We love you girl for you own original personalities. However, do control it sometimes. Hehee.. be you is what we love most. Aishah, cute name chacha chut I still prefer to call her shah. That is me calling her originally. I like her, easy to find friends and does not have any difficulties in being one of them. Hope she does not forget the rest of us in both pos- and neg- . she brings bright in my group and she will NOT be forgotten at all times.
Fifi, we really a lot to do and you know what I mean. All the school work and even it is not what we always do in secondary schools but I still need each other coaching please. I need studies together. Thanks =)
Ok.. so far I did not heard anything from the girls or any outing yet. Nevermind. Busy maybe? Hope to met them soon which I do not know when urhs. My expectation is very high.
Thinks that’s all for today then.
Pss.. I wrote this all down in Microsoft words and paste in blog as I do not have internet connection. Hehe.. sorry and don’t take anything too hush.
From: annisa
On Friday the 13 which I did not realize till kak fiefie said but so far everything is find. Think it is just a useless knowledge that has been passed down to people. I guess.Hermm.. what did I do today ? training again as usual and then met bb – which I disturbed him when he was stress with the bbq he was organizing hehe… then off to met kak fiefie with the tarian performance coming this JULY. Ticket are sold at 2 bucks each and its on 19 JULY. Anyone wants to go ?? just beep me.. its at JURONG FRONTIER COMMUNITY CENTER. Which people knew it as LIBRARY. BLA BLABLA anyone wants it just beep la.
Not much today but I pity hubby as he is in real stress. Relax okea bb. You done a good job to try to organized a bbq yourselves and hey.. you friends did helped you kan.. don’t stress. They din think of anything negative so just be happy kae sayang. I’ll support you anyway that I can kae bb. Lurvb you sayang. If you read this.. I was actually missing you deeply. Gosh! No words or action can describe it.
Ok.. not much today.. only the fact that I am tired of the whole holiday was used up for training and girls ! all the best for the com and kak fiefie.. met you there at the com yarhs.. love you.
Hugs and kisses.. muaarqks , annisa
Today is June the 14. Yarhs.. Saturday alright and I had nothing for today. Chacha invited me to the Sentosa trip but was cancelled as she’s busy. Man ! I was looking forward for that. But maybe next time. Ermms.. hopefully mummy buy me a new hp as my old hp is like.. arrgh ! screen cannot see anything at all and I hate it sia. Spent a lot of bucks to beautify my hp but nevermind.. targeting the touch screen.. hehee.. maybe urhs.
Bb was in Pasir Ris right now and he did mension something that is not ok. Well bb, talk to me asap when you reached home. Hope everything is ok.
Every day I sat down in my living room and thought of what I had done for all this years. Is it worth it ? what I done all this while is it worth it ?? is it ? I cannot imagine anything at all. Now I know what I did is nothing they can remembered. All they know now is what all I did is all fake. Which is not. I just do not understand anything at all. ‘seburuk-buruk aku, sejahat-jahat aku, itu semua ON THE BEHALF OF OTHER PEOPLE. What surprised me is that they did not admit that it was their mistake as well. Oh ! afraid ?? afraid of losing people you loved ? then how about me ? you talked about it too and you just do not admit it at all larhs. That was so immature of you. And you put all the blames to me ? you passed the message to me which said so sarcastically but what do you did to my friends ? all the kind generous reasonable messages you passed to them ! din’t you know anything that I and them are linked together ? somemore I get messages and information real fast as I have friends that you do not know but they know you real well to pass the REAL message or infor to me and you dare to LIE LIE LIE LIE LIE ALL THE STU***LIES you sent to me. I have no regrets of listening from people that are willing to share their feels and for your infor these are the people that you trust them so much and guess what … they are the ones who told me to forget about you . some kind of people they are to you huh ?? but you know me to well that I will never be able to forget you as I love you always.
Well, sorry for all that emotions but I really sick and tires la. Been for so long yet do not understand AT ALL.
I missed bb. Again. Every day I never missed to miss my bb. Lurvb you always sayang. Muuarqks !~ :x :x :x :x :x :x :x :x :x :x :x
Tomorrow I am getting ready for SILAT hehehe.. time keeper again. Can’t wait to see that someone that my friends tergiler-giler kan. Hahahahaha !!!
Niwaes.. since I got nothing to do .. then my bb called to go bbq he planned yesterday at Pasir Ris then sangguo aku gi sana nk jumpa dier nya pasal. Then ok urhs.. atleast I get what I wanted. Tk pasal. Worth it g jauh jauh. But the hp thingy cant get it today urhs. Next time maybe. Hehehehehehhee…
I got nothing else to say much. Tmrw wake up earlier and get ready for my duty on silat thingy. NOT all RP students know about what happen in school so anyone please do not bother ask them about what I am doing as non of my old friends knew about the IG I am in. so shut you mouth yarhs.. don’t say I don’t know. Hahahahahahwakakakkaa !!

ouk now i am at skul to support the silat with their competitions. then i decided to check my test results and oh yeah ~! i got a B for culture and a first time A for enterprise. hehe.. thought i dont like the faci but yarhs she did know when to give best scores. w45E agree ? ok urhs.. guess this is all the 2 weeks of vacation dairy i wrote down here.

psss... sorry if there is any errors or anything that might upset any of the readers here please do tag my blog to inform me. as what i did all this somes trurlt from my heart and i do have feelings to hurt others but remember its on the behalf of other people yarhs..

love all and pss to aishah.. we meet at the near end of the year kae gal.. and the rest too..

pss to hamizan.. nak jumpa kao sikit susah..

ok tts all.. muuarqks !

2008-05-26T11:18:00.002+08:00

okea.. on dun neo wat date i forgot.. my class have this extra lesson which is the HIGH ELEMENTS ! woohooo !! hopefully archieve 3-4 CE points urhs.. really need it siaa.. then then went home feeling aching here and there but it was fun for the whole two hours man..
dun wan talk about it as it will be quite long lars..

hermm tell something about my relationship.. got third party involve but its proven that my bb loves me more.. thanks bb ! i really love u too :))
forget about it urhs.. like wat seyy... pompan tk tao malu la.. mepek sak..

ok then.. now here i go..

as time passed everything change.. not one but all..

i dun understand why but maybe i know..

may its me or maybe it them..

no just the both or non..

i duun understand..

everything says that it seems mine but they dun wan to admit theirs so i get it..

WHY ??

maybe my expectations is different from them and i had to run it..

but to them ?? wat is in their eyes i wonder ??

if im available a message was not the reason

BUT if im not A MESSAGE IS JUST A REASON NOT TO FACE THE FACT !!

ouh man.. now i see siaa..

and now i can feel that ppl are avoiding me.. just to be with me wheneva they need me or by force.. shit man..

may as well jus say it laa..

what i have is almost beeing snatch but i know i trust u and u do the same

i saw it.. and i repay it.. i will

never in my life i look for anything that u have

thanks for being mine always..

i'll treasure you alreiite..

take my words

kill me if i break it

thanks for everything..

all i want is the love u give my that never fails..

not anything else..

im not like other kind of gals

the gals who plays with you and treat u like shit

that's why i dun mind wateva u do

as i trust you and goes the same for youseleves.

thanks again..

keep my msg i read it

i know

reference..

save it and kill me if i break it..

promise is a promise only you can break it..

but please don't as i love you to the day we are force to spilt.

pss.. hasanah : love you too

2008-05-16T10:43:00.003+08:00

yesterday was so tiring urhs..
after IG baby was suppose to fetch me home cos its been along time since we met..
then he was very tired.. nvm bb i understand..
anyway i forget then ur wan to fetch me.. i get easily forget when im too tired..
ok atfirst i gat selected to perform on the scholar's tingy then after tak jadi urhs... nvmm.. nxt time then , i understand i cant catch steps sOOoOoO fast..
its ok asri .. :)
i tell hanif about it and he was kind of shock urhs but nvm.. we work together and might not know if we can be partners for a certain event..
yeah ~!
thanks hanif.. its like ur gonna be bestfriend huh ? can ? can ? can ?
hehee..
Next week is the theme so i had to work harder to be in the com urhs..
kakfie !! we're competing against each other laa seyy !!
meet u there huh .. xp
all the best for the both of us then sis !
hmm...
not much at skul.. the class was abit dull urhs as certain ppl din cum but still my class had a great fun all day..

err err .. :)
today maths btw.. no idea for the ppt..
;(;(;(;(

after skul have tea party.. ! cant wait.. ! they seyy gonna be fun urhs... but im sure i think not gg to be long there... need to met the PS ..
important.. i better cum urhs to see everything..
tired tao.. lari sane sini.. but its ok.. kurus sikit badan xp

okok..gtg.. need to finish ppt..
brb !

2008-05-13T11:05:00.003+08:00

Dun LAuGhs !

ouuUUOoH..HapPY fAMilY !
Nice face S.w

Cassie still feels happy when 'kene' pounch

ok..
my break is gona end soon.. but i'll be fast.
ok.. erms.. the pic i took about yesterday i recieved and enjoy yarhs..
click click click !!
hehee..

i had fun taking these photo la friends... we had a good laughs..

eventually there is alot but i did put everything urhs.

just like a movie oni..heheee.. !!

yesterday had a bad headache la after skul.. Then when i was about to have a rest..
bb kene 'rub' la seyy !!!
i was so panic then i get get him.. i mean i can but then its his friends reply.
was so sad and i immediately msg kak ayu to find him watsoeva and finally he call.
thanks alot !

then i was so angry with bb this

morning la.. nv dun wanna talk about it.. my heart is sooOO soft to be too angry sia..

aniweas.. i was so tired now adays . fEEL that i gona fait soon .

Monday i have clash 2 IG tt means i have to cum one after another

thuesday sometime i have meeting larhs about my IG.

wEDNesday i have tarian and have to work hard for upcuming events

Thurday i have dikir to complete for the upcuming com if selected.

fRiday i have meeting for the upcuming silat events.

Alamak then whenn can i practice my PS ??

Can i do it on weekends ? You gals practice 1st then i catch up kae..

sorry..

alarhs.. i have alot to handle since start of school..

i am afraid to lose something precious..

bb im sorry kae cnat spend time with u much..

this goes the same to EVERYONE who knows me.

okea larhs.. tired so enjoy my pics.. !

2008-05-12T12:17:00.003+08:00

oukea.. as usual break time..

on Friday finally get to meet Aishah !
yeah ~ !
and eeqah
yeah ~ !
heeheee... met PS at frontier cc but sad.. kak fie not there.. KL urhs..
its been a long time since i meet them and they were lyke sooOo shock to see my hair..
rosak larhs cos of tt bleach..
then then after frontier cc i catch a cab to go home., late siaa so spend few bucks for home.
Saturday i went to Cik NOr's wedding.. Wan ye mum married again.. my family only have a few hrs there as all have alot of staffs to finish up like mum n uncle have to clean up the house and i had to go to bedok for training on up cuming event during the weekends of my vacation.
nuts ! time when i want to enjoy but then i need to fonosh my CE points. hehee.. niwaes a good experience for me to help the silat people..
eeqah are u gonna have silat com soon ?
ernms.. after the bedok thingy i went stright to Gombak. moving there mahhs..
i like seyy the house .. so comfy..
then my new neighbours got this guy ar.. i tot is the helpers then it turn out not.. jus there for help.
my uncle say.. "it think he knows that there is a girl in the house that's why he help"
i pretend i din heard that.. i love u bb..
i had a nice sleep that night but my mum n uncle not.. hahareks ! best siaa sleep.
even the thunders does not wake me up.
wanna neo why ? i have fan directly beside me..
hehee.. ~
Sunday.. went to ikea that mum n uncle bought something that is useless for the house la seyy..
waste money.. but they are finding ways to solve it.. i din bother to help laa cos im busy revising.
okea.. then just wait for today for lesson to start..
then then..
we took this cool pics siaa.. wait for my cassie send it to me then i post it huh..
all of u sure gonna get a gooOoOOOoOoODd laughs !
hahhaaa ! i had fun make it with the people involve..
till then.. after skul i have tarian.. skip dikir cos performance coming laa..
dikir i cum on thursday to select for the upcuming com..
hopefully i selected laa..
till then ..

2008-05-09T12:52:00.002+08:00

now is break time and when everything i know already i can proceed to my blog then.
Maths was sooOooOo confusing and full of challenges. it was fun as i can keep my brains working and stop thinking from all that bead experience i had all this while. Wish i could turn back time.
when i read it felt soOoOoO .. aargah !! it is like, as if it is not at fault lor.. but heck care.. not my life anyway so why bother right ?..
hmm.. it has been a long tiime since i mit my baby. Too busy with alot of stuff happening.
sorry baby . please forgive me yarhs.. i still love u ..
i also dun have enough time with friends. too tired siaa and i have only had few hours of rest. i mean each day i had to go through continue working siaa.. from home to skul to IG to family to frineds. Nothing that i could do but to leave them behind and concentrate on studies. Thanks kak fie for understanding .

then just now while waiting for one of my team mates to come back, i played this interesting game. Test on how fast you are.. try it ..

go to yahoo.. - type : world hardest game .. heheee have fun..
okea.. i update again.. gtg finish up the presentation.. chao !!

2008-05-08T16:49:00.003+08:00

today was the UT again. Herks ! made a big mistake. the 1st UT i open the wrong 6p. Man ! well cant say about it nimore arh.. da lepas pe..
then today.. nothing much learning science and god finally something about chem. And hopefull i can make it arhs. i wan A sia.. not B or C.
YEstersay ader tarian and i was osooOoO happy to learn new steps and i want more man! Fun siaa. then there is show cuming and hopefully i can perform ar infront of the whole poly !
Need to get to busy again.
Fiza, sorry din go back home with you kea.
Penat siol, you see how tired i am every morning right.
heheee...
niweas, i feel not myself lately.. feel like forgetting that person arh.. bingit siaa..
forget about that.. not important at all ..

till now..

2008-05-07T10:47:00.002+08:00

Its not for YOU Its not for ME Its for W45E

fizaaaaa!! I have been eyeing on tat beg laa.. i wan buy.. got the bucks but dun neo when i wan buy.. booohhooo... ;)) hhahaaa

ok..

today my class is celebrating XUEJUN's birthday - HAPPY 17TH GAL !

then then we order pizza.. yoohoo ~ fun siaa.. and it's funny on what my classmates wrote infront of the box..

after school i have gamelan and tarian. Will be attending both i think.. i think..

not much to say.. presentation starting..

gtg..

c ya !

2008-05-06T10:00:00.003+08:00

ouk tiday is the UT. man ! need to type even faster . its like source based qn and there are 7 of them and had to be done by 30 mins ! alaarh.. done already don talk about it.

hmm.. i missed my gals sooooooooOoOoOoOooOoO much lehhs.

missed hanging out with them alot. Hope i am available soon or sooner so that i can hang out with them more often like before.. Haiya, too cope with studies but i dun mind. Keep my mind going and going.

Now i understand it is just a misunderstanding and i do not want to put up the story again both in and out of family. okea. i want to go out but not this week.

moving to gombak this week and btw aishah.. i remember u want to take a look of my new house with the walls colours and guess what ? ummi pergi paint it all WHITE again. full white siia pangil orang luar white it. sorie.

ermm ermms.. SEMUA JAGAN LUPA DATANG MY HOUSE FOR THE HARI RAYA !! i cant wait finally get a home. heehee..

Hasanah,Aishah and Fiza kiter kua same2 kae one day. sorry din join u gals tt time. go geylang with relatives. Lamer tk jumpa dieorg and umi force me to go.

Fiza:

Sorry that time i say i want to go same IG with u but end up ... ?? ... heng u understand. Thanks gal ! I still pay 80 cents cos its money. Ngah trainning to pay people's money even its 10 cents urhs.. Wanna neo why ? learn my lesson la. hehe :))

Baby:

dunt be upset with it kea. Whats gone is gone already. Im always there for you.

Zaza:

wonder where are u now.

Ifah:

dun neo when ur bdae la. tiber2 nak presents.

W45E, DUN WANT SEPARATE WITH U GUYS LEHHS !!!

DIKIR : Maintain u as main

Gamelan : Sorry tk dtg. too many clashes la.

Tarian : tgk la lau aku nak.

Puteri Satria : Coming to the prectices ok ! Tell me when.

okea.. i'll update whens time kea.

2008-05-05T08:56:00.000+08:00

It has been long since a last updated so I am sorry for anyone who complaints about me not updating my blog. Mainly because :
- I have no strong network at my area.
- I cannot update in class as there is no time for me
- Too tired
-nothing much to say
-too busy
Ok, its true that I am busy nowadays, too tired to spend time with people around me and that SNS admiralty make me so much trouble to get my salary there and also begged me to help them. As usual not enough workers but I don’t mine cos I need money. I hope people do not mind about I ‘m going work is more priority then hanging out with you. Hope u people understand as I have my own problems which non of you include fifi do not know. I’m sorry.
With all this happens around me, atleast now I know which to treasure the most and now I know the real of them behind scene. With all the encouragement from people I love like : my mum, my bb , kak fie fie and kak line ( these are the person I turn to) and fiza ( the first one to know as we often went to school together) all said the same thing: just ignore whatever that person is doing to me, some say do not befriend with them since they do not appreciate anything I do. So, I possibly can’t lose friends as I hate doing that cos I know every people have their good and bad so what I do is to ignore as usual what I have done for the pass few years. What I know now is to achieve my goals and be a proud daughter and girlfriend and friend to all the people around me. Thanks abang man, what you thought me the other time was right. Sometimes you have to lose them for your own and their good as WORLD COMES AROUND GOES AROUND. Thanks so much. I will prayed for you and kak Lina to be long last relationship. AMIN.
Okea.. I don’t have anything to talk about this again. All I want is people to understand what I want for good for my family as I know I am gonna be the sole breadwinner for my family as I am the only daughter. Both my love ones need me. So I want to start now. Hope you people understand me kae. I am sorry for not spending time with you and also make you think I am not there for you now. Friends, you should know who you are, I hope you come back and be with me kea. You always welcome even that you are different. I still appreciate you as you understand other people and always be patience in everything. I adore your attitude so much. Without you I become so lonely. Please don’t think that your forgotten just cos I put my studies as priority kea.
Okea.. that’s enough I guess. Now lets say something about what I have been through lately.
Currently I am in REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC..proud proud I am.. ! heheee.. finally after 4 years , I made it to poly. Well, ok let me take this straight, I promised eddy 4 yrs ago that means I’m in sec2 , he is in Singapore poly , I think that time he was ard 19 or 20 years of age. He was drunk but I remembered his last words before I lost contact with him, he ask me to promise him that I will go poly. Since this is a nice one so I agreed. I jus hope that my msg to him is delivered.
In RP first yr was so dam bored la but it’s great as it helps me to get ready for yr 2 n 3. Yeah~ hopeful I can make it, I know I can. Basically, I learned 5 subject , enterprise, maths, science, congnitive and culture. Haiyo.. everyday presentation and somemore im oni booksmart and this researching is killing me . my class.. ard 23 people I think.. let me think.. 5..5…5..4..4.. so that’s mean 22,, yahs,, 22 students in my class.. ehhe.. well.. so far we gona through a lot together like gg vivo buy bade cake for daphane and gg to movie(iron man) but I din attend these outing ar. Busy and tired and I have plans with my family. So far we have a lot of fun. msn each other during enterprise as we damly hate the faci. S*** la she. Din give any chance to others and I suppose to get a B and end up getting a C cos of my personality comment. Walao ! but nevermind. Better try next time. Sorry for one of the group did not even get to present. W45E im I think im planning to order Canadian pizza kea. Think no need to wait for the next birthday gal/boy so I want some to help kae. We’re going to eat eat eat pizza kea.ehehhe !! can’t wait !
Then then I want all of us to get together one day to disturb chris in her work.. hhaha !! get you chris. You always the funniest gal in class in the blurest ( ehhe dun be mad urhs !) we adores you .. hehe
Hmm.. my IG (CCA for those who dun neo what I mean) . I entered malay culture staff as im obsess with it. Im in TARIAN,GAMELAN and DIKIR BARAT. Yeah ~ oni my skul have gamelan. Lucky skul and lucky me to get in. thanks ! now I can slowly proceed to my dreams. Hehe..
Hmm.. Lina’s birthday is soon to come. Wonder what to buy for her big day… Lina Lina.. W45E not Lina our class , its my friend.. eheh.. okea.. Lina do tell me what you want huh.. ehhee.. INSYALLAH I buy.. heherks !
Well, this is not even ¼ Of my life but I only want to summaries it la. Too long and I haven’t update for along time. Heehee xp..
Sorry Hasanah and Aishah for not going out with you gals ;) do accept my apologies. It try to make up for another day kea where we will spend together.
**annisa_albiniaROSE**

2008-04-11T13:40:00.002+08:00

Hehee, Long time din update..

btw..

name: Khairunnisa Kamal

school : Jurong Town Primary > Jurong West Seconday > Republic Polytechnic

Stay : Bukit Gombak

Status : attached > april > 8mths already

Long last : ROHANI <14>

course : micro and nanotechnology

mood : Fedup !

heheee..

no time to update n nothing interest me at all.

tt all.

herks !

2008-03-20T20:29:00.006+08:00

ouk.. its been longed since i updated and i am sure chacha longing to read.hehe..okes.. nothing to type much but i would lyke to post some pix of my yishun side members. hehe.

we had alot of fun times together. Helping each other till the very last end. Problems shared and crazy things done together.. cant get enough of it. got nice scolding from parents as went home so late at night. Dun care cos i neo i wun be seeing them often lyke b4. so hope u ppl out there have a nice laugh at my pix i told yesterday !

******************************************

so how ? lyke my pix ?

got some more and when u scroll lyke a vedio u have a good laugh at it..

so ge back to bloggy again soon ..

hopefull..

thank u

ALBINIA.

2008-02-21T18:48:00.003+08:00

Oh my..wonder how long i havnt been updating my inter~diary connection..
hehehe. erms.. well, im doing quite fine right now.. gotten my results for poly..
REPUBLIC POLYTECNIC
MICRO AND NENOTECHNOLOGY
hermm.. the problem is, i choose to take this course as i already learned at my first job as a sales promoter. Well, thanks to bok that he ever told me about what i am doing is in the third year poly and his right. Thanks bok.
hmm.. what else? oh yarhs.. now i am in 'proper' job as a cashier at Admiralty Shop n Save. wow.. A cashier..on my 1st and 2nd day.. hehhe.. im lack of above $5 plus. hehe.. got to pay or deduct from my salary.. third day i lack of 10.55 bucks.. walao ! but i pay myself usin my monthly allowance. one day of no food and drinks for me.. after the 4th days, hehe.. com in all the better staff.. more money instead of lacking of money at the end of the day. hehe.. i dunch neo how it happens but.. better then i had to pay.
hermss.. experiance cums first b4 earnings.. no point u dunch learn anything but earning. its not worth it for the future. mum says what happen in the presents dun waste as it will be something in the future.. thats true alright..
now, attached happily with EDYN. There is something about him that no one knows and oni me knows about him.Those who dunch neo him may thinks that he is now for me.. well, its time for me to know and for u to find out what it is.. I may not know and u may never know what will happen next. as long as i neo what i am doing, im find with it. hehe..
i'll may publish his photo soon.. MAYBE..

I beginning to miss kak fie2 and kak wani.. lamer tk jumpa.. busy with my work.. hais..
biler nak jumper.. reali2 miiiiisssssss them lots! wanna go out with them again lehhs..
kakfie and kak wani.. mit u sis when im free kea !!! yeah ~~ !!

i miissss my two darlings !! fifi and has.. my two fairies that always hang on my necks.. love them muah muah.. !!
we mit up one day kae !!

to Baby.. i love u syg, oni tears can explain everything i feel about u.. and i cant believe it that it happens just like that. That proves how much deep love i gv u even i dun notice it myself and u see it with ur own eyes bb. after that i saw your differences and i knew i answered your every questions. i Know u more then them bb. Forget what they say.. its between us now.. lurve u bb.. muarks !!

guess i have no more to update..
i'll end up with todays memo.. :-
STRINGS CUT WILL NEVER TIE
hehe, get it.. ?? hoped u neo what i mean...

toddles !
**albiniaROSE**